i refuse to sink.

sequel chapter three

I decided not to go to work today, and sleep in instead. Which was a bad idea when I woke up at twelve-thirty.

I rushed out of bed and into the shower. I needed to make a good impression. I rinsed my short hair and stepped out of the shower. When I moved to New York, I cut my hair. It used to be right above my belly button, but now it is above my shoulders. I also dyed it a lighter brown, I think this hairstyles suited me better anyways.

"What to wear." I mumbled looking in my closet. I decided on my light teal studded skater dress. It was dressy, but cute. I put on nude pumps to match. I waited until my hair was dry, and straightened it. I applied my normal make-up, foundation, mascara, and eyeliner. I looked in the mirror, satisfied with my look I grabbed my phone and waited in the living room.

Tori called me telling me they were downstairs. Boy, was I nervous. I was glad when I saw Tori in a black dress with heels, I didn't want to be the only one overdressed.

"You can still wear dresses like that, and stand in heels?" I joked walking up to Tori.

"Shut it." Tori jokingly snapped. I gave her a hug and got in the back seat.

"You look beautiful Morgan." Zayn smiled as I sat down.

"Thank ya very much." I replied in a southern accent.

"She is nervous, she does that when she is nervous." Tori told Zayn.

"Do not!" I argued. Tori looked at me, "Okay, yeah I am nervous."

"I like your accent now, like it American, but yet a hint of British." Tori said.

"Really?" I asked. No one has ever mentioned my accent. She nodded, so did Zayn.

As we approached the arena I started panicking.

"Are you okay?" Tori asked worriedly. I nodded my head and closed my eyes, taking deep breaths.

"I have anxiety." I said between breaths.

"Oh babe, I'm sorry. Is there anything I can do?" Tori asked. She climbed in the back and rubbed my back.

"Thank you." I said once I was calmed down.

"You ready? We're here." Tori said. I took a deep breath and nodded. Zayn helped Tori and I out of the car.

"Are they here yet?" I asked. Zayn shook his head.

"No, they will be soon though." He answered. We walked into the building and into the dressing room

"I can't do this." I started panicking. "They are going to hate me, I can't do this."

"Shh, stop. Calm down." Zayn crouched in front of me and calmed me down.

"They probably won't recognize me." I said.

My thought was answered when the door swung up, "Morgan?" I looked up and was met with Louis. I calmed down and nodded. A huge smile broke across his face.

I stood up and he ran over to me. He hugged me and swung me around.

"I have missed you babe." He said.

"Me too Lou." I smiled and hugged him tighter. I pulled away. He smiled and looked me up and down.

"You look great." He smiled at me.

"Thanks."

"What is all this yelling?" A voice laughed. I looked behind Louis and saw Liam entering, followed by Niall, and Harry.

Liam looked at me shocked.

"Is that Morgan?" Niall said. Harry had his nose in his phone but when he heard my name his head snapped up.

"Hey guys." I smiled. Liam and Niall rushed over and gave me a huge hug.

I laughed, "I've missed you too." I pulled away and smiled at the boys.

"You look great." Niall said. Liam nodded.

"Thanks boys." I smiled at them. I totally forgot about Harry standing at the doorway. But when I looked at him he shook his head and ran away.

"Told you this would happen." I mumbled.

"Babe, don't be to harsh on him. He went through a lot." Louis said.

"So did I, just because I was the one that left doesn't mean my life was perfect." I snapped. Louis held his hands up in defeat. "Sorry." I whispered.

"My fault babe." Louis said and gave me a hug.

"Should I go find him?" I asked Louis. Louis nodded. I took a deep breath and walked out of the room. I walked down the hall looking in every room.

I gave up when I reached the end of the hallway. I sighed and leaned against the wall. My head snapped up when I heard a door open. I looked up and saw Harry walking down the hallway.

"Harry!" I shouted. He stopped and turned around. When he saw it was me he turned back around. I caught up to him and grabbed onto his shoulder.

"Harry please." I begged. He stopped and turned around. His eyes looked tired, and hurt. His hair was disheveled.

"What do you want?" He snarled. I sighed and dropped my head. I heard him sigh and cross his arms across his chest.

"I'm sorry." I whispered. He didn't say anything so I looked up. Tears brimmed his eyes, I frowned and wrapped my arms around his torso. He flinched when I touched him, but relaxed and wrapped his arms around me. "I'm so sorry." I cried into his chest.

"I know." I heard him whisper. He pulled away and looked at me.

"I mis-"

"Don't." Harry held his hand up. "Don't say that, because if you did you would have came back." Harry snapped before walking away. I sighed and wiped my tears away.

I walked back into the dressing room. All eyes snapped to me when I did so. I gave a smile and walked to Tori.

"You okay?" She asked. I shook my head. She sighed and gave me a little side hug. "He'll come around."

"He won't." I whispered. The door open and Harry walked in, with a girl attached to his hip. He looked at me, then quickly looked away. Harry and the girl walked over to his mirror. He sat down and she sat on his lap, soon to be attached at the lips.

"Don't worry, she is just another one of his shags." Louis whispered making me jump. I didn't realize I was staring, I blushed in embarrassment and looked down at my hands. "Don't show him it affecting you, he is a dick he will rub it in your face." Louis said.

I nodded, "What do you mean he is a dick?" I asked.

Louis sighed, "He's changed." I felt guilty. I just nodded and played with the hem of my dress. "Don't blame yourself babe."

"How can I not?" I snapped, louder than I intentioned on. Harry pulled away from the girl and looked at me. I shook my head and stormed out of the room.

I slid down the wall and brought my knees to my chest.

He was never going to forgive me.