i refuse to sink.

chapter thirty-nine.

"It's a dare you have to do it." Tori argued.

"What if he is asleep?" I asked them.

"He will definitely be awake after this then." Eleanor laughed. I groaned and picked up my phone calling Harry.

"Hello? Morgan, is that you?" I heard Harry shout into the phone after four rings. I could hear music and yelling in the background.

"Uhh yeah." I said nervously.

"Is something wrong?" He slurred. Yep I knew it. He was out partying.

I was about to answer then I heard girls calling him back to bed in the background.

(Harry come back to bed.)

(We're so cold.)

(Harrryyy- One moaned.)

"Shut up." I heard Harry hiss at them.

(Ooo feisty, we like it.)

(Rawwwrrr)

Are you fucking kidding me!?

"I uhh- nevermind you seem to be busy." I spat.

"No Morgan I promise its not what you think-"

"Harry I'm pregnant, I was going to wait to see you but looks like I wont be seeing you anymore. Sorry for wasting your time and interrupting whatever the hell your doing." I yelled into the phone.

"Your pregnant?" Harry whispered.

"Yes Harry but I don't need your help, I cant trust you anymore so no you are not a father unless you get one of those sluts pregnant. Goodbye Harry." I spat into the phone before he could protest. I screamed and threw my phone at the wall.

"Morgan?" Tori brought me out of my thoughts. I looked up at all the faces looking at me and broke down. They all ran over to me and engulfed me in a group hug as I cried.

"He was in the bed with other girls." I sobbed into someone's shoulder.

"Its okay, we are here. We wont let anything happen to you and the baby okay? We will always be here for you." Tori whispered in my ear.

"Come on lets go to bed." Danielle said as she picked me up. Danielle set me down in bed and Tori came and laid next to me comforting me.

"I hate my life Tori." I sobbed into her shirt.

"No you don't babe, you just go through a lot of shit but you are so lucky Morgan, you may not think it but you are. You have me you always have me." Tori rubbed my back.

"I wish-I -w-wish Rita never walked in on that-o-on that night." I sobbed.

"No Morgan, you don't wish that. Please don't wish that Morgan, ever. Please." Tori cried. "I thought I lost you that night babe, I was a mess so please don't say that."

"You did though." I cried.

"I did what?" Tori asked.

"You lost me."

"No I didn't, I never lost you. Sure you changed, but everyone does right? I could never lose you, and I know I wont because im here to make sure. So is Dani and El, we all love you Morgan."

I didn't say anything after that. I just closed my eyes thinking about what im going to do with my baby. Will I be enough for him or her? What if I turn out like my mother did? Im scared to do this on my own.

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"MORGAN!" I heard a familiar voice yell. I opened my eyes and saw Tori look at me frantically before telling me to go back to sleep and running out the door.