i refuse to sink.

chapter ten.

((THE TRIP TO HAWAII IS NOW TO BORA BORA INSTEAD!))

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Morgan's P.O.V

Flashbacks from last night sped through my mind. I was awake, no doubt about it. I have been awake the whole night, replaying memories of my dad. Harry didn't realize, and I didn't want him to. I don't want people to have sympathy for me, it makes me feel useless. I looked at my phone, it was 8 in the morning. Harrys arm was wraped around my body again. I know he was worried sick about me last night and refused to let me out of his arms. I think they thought I would try something. They thought I would kill myself. As much as I wanted to, I know how badly it would hurt Tori and Rita, my mom? She wouldn't even notice I am gone, that's whats hard. But it would be hard on my six new best friends, maybe for a few weeks or so,then I wouldn't matter. Or maybe no one would care? Maybe I hold everyone back from living their dreams, I mean I threw away my dream, but I have many more. I was awoken from my thoughts by someone wiping my face.

"Why are you crying babe?" Harry asked in his morning voice. I didn't even realize I was crying.

"I'm so lucky to have friends like you." I lied. Harry nodded, but I don't think he believed me.

"No, we are the lucky ones." Harry whispered in my ear. He kissed my forehead and helped me out of bed. We walked downstairs hand in hand, I liked it.

"Hey Morgan." Niall said happily, well he was a morning person. He seemed extra happy.

"How are you feeling?" Liam asked. He seemed extra happy too.

"Good, thanks. Thanks for helping me yesterday, sorry about ruining the plans." I mumbled to everyone. Everyone got up and gave ma a huge hug, I was still holding Harrys hand.

"We have a surprise for everyone." Niall cheered. Zayn and Liam had the biggest smiles on their face, I was kind of scared. "Zayn." Niall nodded at Zayn to tell us.

"Well last night I searched for some tickets, and I found some." Zayn paused for suspense. I squeezed Harrys hand, wanting to know more. He shook his head not knowing what was going on.

"Tickets for what?" Louis asked.

"Oh right, just Bora Bora for 2 weeks." Zayn shrugged. Eleanor and Louis screamed and I stood there in shock. Tori ran over to Zayn and kissed him, he picked her up and kissed back. Well that's new.

"Is he serious?" I asked.

"Yeah, are you excited?" Liam asked. Harry looked at me pleading my answer.

"Excited cant even describe how I feel." I paused. "WE'RE GOING TO BORA BORA!" I screamed. Everyone started jumping and cheering. Harry picked me up and spun me around making me laugh like a little girl.

"Harry! Put me down!" I laughed. Harry put me down and gave me a huge hug. I let go of Harry and walked over to Zayn.

"Thank you Zayn." I whispered in his ear as we hugged.

"You deserved a break." Zayn whispered. I pulled my head from his shoulder and looked at him shocked. He nodded "This is for you Morgan." Zayn said and kissed my forehead as I squeezed him tighter.

"When do we leave mate?" Harry asked.

"Tomorrow, so everyone better go pack. Our plane leaves tomorrow morning at 3." Zayn informed everyone.

"So Tori and Morgan go home and pack then come back over for a sleep over, then we can all leave together tomorrow okay?" Liam asked. Tori and I squealed excitedly.

"I will give you ride, I need to go grab some things from my place. And stop by the shops." Eleanor offered.

"Okay, can I come to the shops with you?" I asked.