i refuse to sink.

chapter twenty-six.

Harry's P.O.V

It has been two long, heartbreaking, painful days. Two days since Morgan has been in the hospital and still hasn't woken up. I stayed by her bedside everyday and cried my self to sleep every night, she seemed to be getting weaker and weaker each day. Last night her heart failed, because her of brain damage, so she was rushed into surgery. The doctors asked to take her off life support, but I couldn't say yes. As much as it pained me to see her go through this pain, I couldn't stand losing her. Tori showed up sometimes with Zayn, but she couldn't be there, to see her best friend like that. It was hard on Zayn too, he was the one who found her. I kept praying that she would wake up and everything would go back to normal, but it never happened. I knew I lost Morgan, I just couldn't bring myself to face the truth.

"Harry?" I heard someone say. My head shot up to look at Morgan, but it wasn't her. It was Louis. I sighed and got up to go see Louis. "Need anything?" Louis asked.

"Yeah, can you grab me a coffee please?" I asked Louis quietly. Louis nodded and gave me a hug before walking out of the room. I walked back to my seat next to Morgan and gave her a kiss on the cheek before sitting down.

Morgan's P.O.V

"Yeah, can you grab me a coffee please?" I heard Harry ask someone. That's what I heard clearly, almost like I was awake. I heard shuffling and someone kiss my cheek, it was Harry. I tried to open my eyes, but it hurt. My whole body hurt, I don't remember much. I remember falling that's it. I don't remember Harry being here. I felt Harrys hand on mine and I used all my energy to squeeze it, I didn't. I moved a little.

"Morgan?" I heard Harry ask. I moaned in pain. "Morgan, can you hear me?" I nodded my head and opened my eye slowly. The first thing I saw was Harry. He looked horrible, no offense. His hair was a mess, his eyes were red and puffy and he had massive bags under his eyes.

"It hurts Harry." I croaked out. Harry smiled at me, I guess because I was talking. I don't know how long I was out for.

"I know baby, I know. I am going to go get a doctor." Harry said.

"Stay." I whispered. I couldn't talk very loudly I tried but I couldn't. Harry looked at the door then me then nodded. He handed me a water cup with a straw and helped me drink it.

"Alright here you go mate." I heard Louis say from the door.

"Go get a doctor." Harry said before Louis came in. I heard Louis run out of the room.

"Its going to be okay, I love you Morgan so much." Harry whispered and gave me peck on the lips.

"I love you Harry." I said.

"Your awake!" I heard someone exclaim. I looked up and saw a doctor with a clipboard and Louis standing behind him.

"Hey babe." I heard Louis say.

"Hi Lou." I smiled.

"Okay, how are you feeling?" The doctor asked. How do you think I'm feeling?

"Horrible." I groaned.

"Well it's a relief you made it Morgan, so we have to run some tests and give you some medicine. Do you know what happened?" The doctor asked.

"I remember falling that's it."

"Well we know why you fell, do you?" He asked again.

"No?" I looked at Harry who frowned and looked down at his hands.

"Morgan you have lost a massive amount of weight, when you got here you lost 62 pounds but now it is at 67 pounds. You haven't been eating have you?"

I looked at Harry and shook my head. Harry sighed and I saw a few tears slide down his face.

"Okay, well we are getting you a therapist Morgan. You need help, this isn't healthy, we almost lost you." The doctor told me.

"I don't need help, I am fine. I am perfectly fine." I spat at the doctor.

"Morgan please." I heard Harry whisper to me. I turned my head to look at him.

"Do you think I'm crazy?" I asked. Harry sighed and looked at his hands again. "You do don't you?"

"No Morgan. But something is wrong, okay? Just please talk to someone." Harry said sternly.

"Fine, I will talk to someone, okay?" I said sternly.

"I'm sorry we had to do this, but I will contact someone immediately." The doctor said and walked out.

"I'm doing this for you, I hope your happy Harry." I snapped at Harry.

"Morgan, seriously? Do you not realize how painful it was to see you like this? It's not normal Morgan. So go ahead and complain about it, but when you find out something is seriously wrong with you, don't come crying to me, okay?" Harry spat at me and stormed out of the room.

"I'm sorry Morgan." Louis whispered. I started to cry so Louis came over and gave me a kiss on the forehead lightly, afraid to not hurt me.

"What if something is wrong with me?" I asked Louis.

"Then we will all help you get through it Morgan, you are so strong." Louis said.

"Harry won't help, not anymore." I whispered.

"Yes he will," Louis sighed "He is just upset, he thinks its his fault, he has been pretty hard on himself. He just wants you to be okay, he loves you so much Morgan."

"He thinks it's his fault?" I whispered.

"Yeah, he hasn't stopped crying since the accident. He thinks that he expects to much from you, so you did this to make him happy." Louis said seriously.

"It's not his fault, I just wanted to look different. I was unhappy, not because of him. Yes, I wanted to look different for him, but he didn't pressure me into it." I sighed.

"You are perfect Morgan, you always were. But now? Your to skinny, Harry probably feels like he is going to break you when you two, you know, have sexual intercourse." Louis laughed. I laughed at Louis, he was definitely himself now.

"I know, I just felt so disgusted by myself. I looked so ugly compared to the girls Harry talks to."

"Never think that Morgan, Harry looks at you like you are an angel, like you're the only one in the world, like the one he wants to do everything with. He loves you, the other day this girl came up to him, and was flirting with him so Harry started talking to her, you know to be nice. Want to know what he was talking about?" Louis asked and I nodded, I was afraid he was going to say he was talking about how pathetic I was. "You, he was talking about you how you meant everything to him, and how much he loved you. He just kept talking about you, the girl got really upset so she stormed off. But Harry doesn't care about any other girls, only you Morgan. Its always been you." Louis said. He wiped the tears from my cheeks and gave me a kiss.

"Thank you Louis, for everything." I whispered.

"No, thank you for making my best friend the happiest he has ever been." Louis said. I smiled and nodded. I loved Harry, so much.

"Morgan Bridgestone?" I heard someone ask. It was a woman.

"Yeah?" I said.

"I am Ms. Debby, I am here to talk to you about your latest accident." She said. Louis said good bye and left me alone with my therapist.

"Can someone stay with me?" I asked. She nodded. "Harry, can you get him? He has curly hair." I told her she nodded and walked out of the room.

"Okay, just have a seat so we can get started." Debby said. I looked up and saw Harry walk in and sit next to me.

"I'm sorry Morgan." Harry whispered. I shook my head telling him he had nothing to be sorry for. I gave him a kiss on the lips and looked over at the therapist letting her know I was ready. Harry grabbed my hand and squeezed it, telling me he was there.

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