i refuse to sink.

chapter twenty-three.

Harry's P.O.V

Today Morgan and I just had a relaxing day, I knew she wasn't up to doing much. So we walked around my home town, and I introduced her to my closest friends. We had ice cream, went to the park, went to a pond, and I bought her a Jack Wills hoodie, her first one. She acted happy, I know she was acting since the incident this morning, she smiled, but it was fake. I know she wanted to be happy, but I don't think it was that easy, something was wrong.

"NO LOUIS!" Morgan yelled.

"YES MORGAN!" Louis yelled back.

"That's not fair, you cut me off, and my car went in the water." Morgan groaned.

"Well you obviously need to learn how to control your Mario Kart." Louis joked. Morgan showed him the bird and sat back down on my lap.

"Louis is a cheater, a very big cheater." Morgan complained to me.

"I know he is babe, but forgive him. I mean he acts like a five year old." I laughed. Morgan laughed at Louis and snuggled into my chest, she actually looked happy, like she wasn't faking it for just this second.

"MY TURN!" Niall shouted.

"Bring it Leprechaun." Louis laughed. Louis and Niall played two games, Louis winning each one.

"Oh Lou, let someone else win." Eleanor groaned.

"Never, I am the champion, if you guys want to stop you must beat me." Louis said.

"I got it El." I groaned. Morgan sat up and kissed me before I went over to the game seats.

"Game on curly." Louis said. I trailed behind Louis most of the game, so he thought he was winning. At the last lap, I raced around him and won. "WHAT!?" Louis screeched. I sighed and shook my head at the child and walked back over to Morgan.

"You're a trickster Styles." Morgan laughed. I nodded and gave her a kiss on the lips before picking her up and putting her on my lap, she was so light. She ate her ice cream today, but barely, maybe a few licks then threw it away. That's all I have seen her eaten today, and it scares me.

"Who's hungry?" I asked everyone.

"Me." Niall replied.

"Me too." Danielle and Liam said at the same time. El and Louis nodded in agreement.

"Okay, chinese food sound good?" I asked.

"OH MY GOSH YESSSS!" I heard Tori yell. I felt Morgan laugh which made me smile.

"Okay, what do you want?" I asked. Everyone told me what they wanted, and I tried to remember it all. "What about you babe?" I asked Morgan.

"Can I just have a few bites of yours? I'm not that hungry." Morgan smiled up at me, but once again. It was fake.

"Yeah, are you sure?" I asked and she nodded. There is no point in arguing with her, she will just get extremely mad. "Alright, I will be back soon. Love you." I kissed Morgan bye.

"Love you too." Morgan whispered.

"Haz I think I'm going to come, if that's alright?" Louis asked, I nodded and he said by to Eleanor and walked over to me. 'Ready?" I nodded and Louis and I headed out.

"I don't know what to do Louis." I sighed as I pulled out of the driveway.

"Me neither mate, but the best thing you can do is be there for her. Just remind her that you are always there for her, no matter what. And don't get mad at her, because it will seem like you are judging her. She's strong, really strong, she is just going through a rough patch, it will fade." Louis said.

"I know Lou, but I'm leaving soon, what going to happen? What if-Lou what if she tries t-"

"She wont Harry, she isn't that weak. I promise you she wont do that." Louis said. "Eleanor is worried, Tori is worried, and Danielle is worried, they won't leave her side, until they know she is completely better." Louis added. He patted my shoulder and I sighed, I shouldn't be thinking like this, I shouldn't be doubting my girlfriend.

"Alright, thanks Lou, lets hope she eats something." I said. Louis agreed and we pulled up at the restaurant and hopped out to go order.

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2 DAYS LATER.

"I will see you soon Morgan, I promise. I have something planned, but I can't tell you yet." I told her.

"Okay, I love you Harry." Morgan cried.

"I love you Morgan, never forget that. No matter what, I will love you, just please don't hurt yourself anymore, okay?" I looked at her. She nodded and wrapped her arms around me and cried into my shoulder. "It's okay, soon, we will be together soon." I whispered. I pulled away and leaned down for a kiss, it was even better than the kiss we shared last time, but it didn't feel right, I just hope this wasn't the last kiss from Morgan.

"I love you Morgan, wear this. It's my good luck bracelet, but I want you to wear it so you don't forget me, and so you know that I will always love you." I said as I placed my lucky bracelet on her tiny wrist.

"Thank you Harry, I will see you soon." Morgan whispered and gave me a kiss one last time before I had to go.

"Take care of her El, she means to much." I whispered to Eleanor.

"I know Harry, I know." She whispered as we hugged, a kissed her cheek and loaded the car with the boys.

"She's fine mate." Liam said.

"She won't do it Harry, you know that." Louis said to me as I watched my beautiful girlfriend get smaller and smaller as the car drove away.

"I love her so much." I whispered partially to myself.

"I know, we all know. She knows it too, which is exactly why she wont hurt herself." Zayn said.

I looked out the window one last time, but I couldn't see her anymore.

"I love you Morgan." I mumbled to myself. I hope this wouldn't be the last time saying it.