The Game of A Life Time

Chapter 46- Daylight

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I mutter to myself, "I won't go there."

He won't care, and Belle won't care. I know that I shouldn't go there, go to the place of darkness.

With all of the blood I have spilled, the dark thoughts keep coming back. This is the karma that my sins have created, a burden on all of them.

Lust is the burden for all of our sins. I can't keep up with his wants, so he lusts after another woman. Seems reasonable to God, God let it happen and created it even.

Two sinners won't cancel each other's atones out, it makes a bigger problem. My hatred and jealousy get the better of me, I can't feel a single damn thing when I walk back into the bar.

My mother left me alone after a while. She held my hand and told me that prayer is the most important thing to live this life I am living, she was wrong. I let her hold me in spirit, feeling her love through the energy she was admitting.

The last two years and more we have been intertwined with each other, our souls are tied forever. The pride and guilt cloud together, murder, theft, lust, and greed come to mind when I think of our days together.

I can see the darkness in the distance. From the way we all have been living, I can tell that he won't be able to resist it when the moment comes. He will be running back to me, not because he loves me, but because we are tied together.

Love and hate are emotions strong enough to tear people apart, the way we handle our emotions are the worst part. We can either get through this or we can dissolve into nothing all over again.

We all drink the same poison from God, from the same vine that created all of our sins. The most rich playful source of our creation of humanity and we still want the darkness that lurks in the distance.

The bartender is gone, only a few people are in the bar. Almost closing time, another man closes out his tab.

Duluth is a beautiful city, but tonight I am going to paint it red. Hatred boils up in my skin all over again, a man and woman sit closely together watching the lights twinkle outside on the street.

"I love it up here. There is so much good that comes from up north," the woman admires the nature.

The man smiles down at her, "I agree."

Sick.

Carter doesn't look at me like that, he doesn't remotely say things about my beauty and strength to me. He lightly applies the darkness is gone and I am free. Bullshit.

Daylight will come in four hours, how much damage do you think I can do until we see the sun? I am betting a whole lot of damage, more than Carter can count on.

Running from the daylight will be hard, but I can do it if I work fast enough. I need to find his car, the new one he just got the other day.

With his new job, money comes in fast. The amount he rakes up in a week is legendary compared to the robberies and shit we did while under the entity's control. He says it is a welding job, but I know better than that.

The amount of weed-scented clothes that come from him can supply an entire city. That is what he is doing anyway, he smokes some and then sells some.

2014 Chevrolet Corvette Stingray was his last purchase after saving up for the new apartment and furnishing project in South Dakota. He is proud of that thing, he loves it more than me. More than anyone or thing in this world.