Her black dress in his poem

Chapter 12

Gaya ng iniisip ko kanina dumaan akong moon's place para bumili ng kape and I saw myself na nasa tapat na ng bahay ni Lucas bumili din ako ng pandesal ewan ko ba parang pumunta ako dito yayain syang mag kape para makapag usap ih

I push the doorbell twice pero walang response baka kasi hindi sya makatayo coz he's not feeling well at mukhang bukas naman ang pinto kaya naisipan kong pumasok na lang.

Biglang bumukas ang pinto ng nasa harapan na ako neto hindi ko lang ito napansin nong unang bisita ko dito but the door is automatic na nag bubukas if there's a person standing in fronyof it kaya pumasok na ako.

I expect na sasalubong sa'kin si mei mei pero wala sya dito sobrang tahimik din ng palagid at wala presence ni Lucas.

Inilagay ko ang mga gamit ko sa couch at inilibot ang paningin ko may nakita akong way sa bandang kanan pababa yata yung way na yan while sa gilid neto mero ding hagdan pataas.

Nakita ko na lang ang sarili ko na nag lalakad paakyat ng hagdan baka kasi nasa taas ang kwarto ni Lucas tapos wala pa palang kain yun pano na lang if namatay sya sa gutom mage guilty naman ako nyan maging isang malaking kasalanan ko pa yan sa dios.

Dali Dali akong umakyat sa taas at ng makarating na ako may nakita akong dalawang kwarto dito.

These place is nice and neat parang babae lang ang nakatira kasi malinis talaga ang buong paligid.

I open the first room pero walang tao saka wala ding laman kahit isa kaya isinara ko na lang bukod sa puting pinta lang ang makikita ko ay wala na akong may nakita pa kaya binuksan ko ulit ang isang kwarto saka pumasok dito.

I was too stunned to speak because this room is also empty walang kahit na anong nakalagay na gamit except for one thing.

Nakaharap ako malaking painting na nasa harapan ko it was a girl wearing a black dress with a curly hair and she's smiling but she's not happy although it's just a painting I can tell the emotions it was like I am staring at myself.

She was painted perfectly but she's not happy it's like she's telling me that this would be her last painting anymore.

Napatulala lang ako sa painting and I can help myself but to cry it's like she's telling me a sad and tragic story in her past, it feels like we're connected to each other, it's feels like I know her eversincse it feels like she's also me.

Pumatak ang mga luha sa pisnge ko sa di ko alam na dalihan all I know is she looks sad, she's in pain, she's struggling.

Napatulala lang ako sa kanya I wanted to ask her who is she exactly ?at bakit kamukha ko sya? Bakit hindi to sinabi sa'kin ni Lucas?

I felt the pain in my chest as if there's a lot of things that keeps flashing on my mind and the worst is those memories ain't mine it's hers.

Bakit nakikita ko ang memories na hindi ko naman dapat Makita? I heard her laugh, her cry and her voice like it's my own voice I know it's not my memories I even saw her memories with Lucas they are walking in the straight of the familiar world it is a world I saw once in my dream they're so happy one thing I'm sure is Lucas didn't came from this world he belongs to the other world.

I can't understand and I didn't know what part should I will understand sobrang gulo ng isip some of it are not mine it's like the heavens and the earth collide I heard some voices, I saw random places and random scenarios I can't tell what is it.

I saw a picture of a couple they are really sweet it's like even the stars can't separate them not even the gods above. Those smile of hers was a treasure and worth to keep I can tell that she's really happy being with Lucas.