Her black dress in his poem

Chapter 23

I wake up again in different universe everytime I fell asleep I wake up in a different unfamiliar places but if there's something I'm happy with is that in every universe I saw Lucas and Selene and wanted to watch them while falling asleep knowing I will never wake up to the same place again.

I saw the most beautiful wedding of my entire life in a middle of the crowd while the snow falls perfectly. It's a wedding of Selene and Lucas and I remembered I cried when the priest announced that they were husband and wife. The place in that universe was so cold coz it was full of ice it's like a place of ice but my heart was warm when I saw him kissed her in her white and sparking wedding dress.

I also wake up in a place where Lucas and Selene grow old together it's the night where they celebrate family reunion because I heard them from afar they talked about how thier children and grandchildren grew old, talking about they are already old but they felt like everything happens just yesterday. I also wake up in a universe where I meet young Selene and Lucas playing in a playground where they got married in a paper rings and promised each other to remarry if they grow up and yes, that's the most cutest thing I ever known. There's also a universe where teen Selene and Teen Lucas doing random things, telling jokes and breaking rules.

I maybe can't count the universe I wake up with but one thing I'm sure is that Lucas and Selene end up together in every universe.

I take a deep breath when I wake up to the universe I've been looking for. It's the universe I saw in my dream, a street where I saw dead Selene and a place where Lucas lost his Selene. A universe where the story never ends the way it used to be. The only universe that connected to me.

There are times I wish I hope I will never walked in this street again but fate is fate. Mapagbiro yung tadhana at magulo. As I passed the road where everything changed the ending of the story my heart felt the pain. The pain of losing someone you really loved, the pain of wanting to survive, the pain of wanting to stay here, the pain of wanting to love him more, the pain of begging god to give time.

I walked and walked coz I know this place once. I already explore in this universe before I came here coz some places I already saw it from the memories of Selene in this universe.

I stopped from someone's graveyard just like in my universe meron itong pangalanan na nakalagay and it's my name.

Name of Selene who died here. May nakita pa akong bouquet of black roses na nakalagay dito and yes maybe kakagaling lang ni Lucas dito.

Napabuntong hininga ako dahil hindi ko alam kung saan mag sisimula now that I'm here. It's like I came from a different magical world but ends in a most chaotic place.

I wanted her to travel with me to see ourselves in every universe who fell in love with the same guy. She's lucky somehow she meet and loved and be loved by her Lucas in his universe while I didn't even had a chance in my universe.

Nakatitig lang ako sa libingan neto sobrang bigat ng nararamdaman ko. I felt like I was here eversincse. Where should the love can be if there's nowhere to go?

Umupo ako sa libingan neto and wanted to stay here and wanted to stare at her. Tiningnan ko ang buong paligid unlike sa universe ko yung libingan dito is quite simple kasi it's made up of green grass and then may mga lapida na may nakalagay na pangalanan ng mga namatay sa kung  saang part ng lupa at dyan nakalibing yung katawan ng isang tao. There's no extra design. wala ding may nakalagay na cross or something just a lapide with it's name written on it.

Di na rin ako nag-tataka nong may nakita akong robot na nag-lilinis dito coz this universe is such a future of my universe. Minsan naisip ko na lang na gumawa na lang sila ng time machine total they are expert in technologies and machine they can even travel in different universe so why didn't make a time machine na lang?.