| When We Were in Love | |H.S|

| 26 | TV |

'And you tell yourself it's fine, you're just in love.
And I don't get along with anyone.
Maybe I'm the problem.'

-TV. Billie Eilish. 2022.

| Harry |

Lucy and I rushed into the hospital making our way to Jared as fast as we could. We didn't know much about what was happening besides Jared telling us that Lily was going in and now he was waiting. We managed to get into the waiting room pretty quickly and seen Jared sitting in a corner with his face in his hands.

"Jared!" Lucy shouted.

Jared's face look up and somewhat seemed relieved. Lucy ran over to him and quickly pulled him in for a hug.

"Are you okay honey?" She asked. I felt a bit jealous instantly. Maybe it was the hug, maybe it was pet name, whatever it was. I hated it. I know I shouldn't have, Lucy isn't my girlfriend but damn, that made me furious.

"I-I don't know what happened. She and I had barely argued for five minutes and then she just.. I-I don't know. I don't what I did," Jared said with an uneasy breathing pattern as he held onto Lucy.

"Jared, don't blame yourself. This wasn't your fault. We're gonna figure out what did this to her," Lucy reassured.

The doctor then came out causing the conversation to be cut short. All our attention was now focused on the doctor.

"Mr. Miller?" The doctor said looking towards Jared.

"Y-Yes sir?"

"Hello, my name is Doctor Marshall. I was in charge of overseeing Lily Holland today," he explained.

"Is she okay?" Jared asked.

"Well yes she is. There isn't any sign of physical damage on her heart, in her lungs, or anywhere else that could have caused this to happen," he explained.

Jared then sighed and ran his hands through his hair. He seemed a bit relieved but also still stressed out.

"That's great news.. how is she now?" Jared asked.

"Well that's the thing I came to talk to you about Mr. Miller. All of this, despite not having a physical illness, had to have been caused by something, right? Well, in this case, I believe that Ms. Holland's sudden lost of control for her breathing, her chest pains, the fainting, the dizziness, all of it, was caused by a mental breakdown." He simply said.

"What?" Jared asked quickly. "What, like PTSD?"

"And among other things," the doctor added on.

"Like what?" Jared said asking very worried.

"Anxiety, depression, of course, the PTSD like you mentioned," the doctor was going to continue on but Jared shut him down.

"How do you know this?"

"Well, like I said, there was no physical illness that could've caused this. But we were able to relax her with certain medication and ask her about her situation and what could have possibly caused this. She clearly explained that you two were in the middle of an argument and certain things that were mentioned caused her to remember certain details of her life before," the doctor said.

Jared's breathing then became uneasy and he didn't know what to say at that point.

"I-I caused this?" Jared asked with his voice now shaking.

"No, sir. This is a normal thing that many people go through due to the fact that they don't know what they're even dealing with these type of mental health problems."

"So what now?"

"Well, she is resting now. She should be up soon, once she's up, we can explain it to her together if you'd like that. It would be easier on her and less stress if she heard this news was also coming from someone she knew and trusted. All of these mental health issues were caused by something way before you came into her life I can assure you. Mr. Miller. This is not your fault, but you were right to bring her in because not addressed properly, Lily could have taken a different path."

Ouch. I felt a bit gutted at his words and he wasn't even talking to me. Mental health issues? I guess it makes sense. I mean, it makes a lot of sense. Lily has been through a lot. More than Jared probably even knows about. It took ages for Lily to talk to me about things, I'm sure Jared doesn't even know the issues that happened between her and I yet.

I did feel a bit of guilt though. I know whatever was bothering her, had to do a lot with her family and the fact that some nights, she was up just worried about them and what would happen if they found her.
But the guilt wasn't for that. Her issues could also be because of me.

What if Jared and her had an argument and it took her back to when we argued..? The last few months for us weren't all that good. Perhaps, being around me made her feel uneasy? I would understand. I wouldn't be surprised if she hated my guts and was only hanging around with me because of Lucy. And I do take some blame, out of all the girls on the island, I didn't have to ask Lily's roommate out on a date.

Maybe I'm the problem. Maybe I needed to stay away for a bit... At least until we can figure out why she had this breakdown. Because honestly, I don't need to be the reason Lily is overwhelmed.