Switching sides

17

Camila

"Taylor I do appreciate this but I feel like I'm overstepping, " I say sitting in the seat of her SUV.

Taylor was in the driver's seat cruising done the freeway, We were in Tennessee headed to one of her small houses. She convinced me to come stay with her for a week or two until I felt better. I was uncomfortable with the fact I'd be staying with her but also the thoughts of where I would go once this was over scared me.

"Well, I'm the one who invited you, so hush" she shushes me and turns the radio up slightly.

Shawn was taken care of in the hospital, I didn't want to go see him but the cops explained he was in pretty bad shape. Taylor is pressing charges for him attacking her, and she wants me to do the same.
I haven't decided yet but I know what the right this to do is. My heart hurts for the pain he has inflicted in my life yet a small piece of me longs for him.

I hate that part of me

I pushed it to the bottom and locked it away, I had other things to focus on, especially now that I had nowhere to go and no money. I needed to step it up. My thoughts flashed to my music, the songs I've written but Shawn's words cast over them like a dark cloud.

Not good enough I remember.

"What are you thinking about" Taylor hummus out

Glancing over at her her hair is pushed back behind her ear and she has one leg pulled up into the seat while the other is used for the gas and brake. My stomach flips and I can't push those feelings away. Her sunglasses are pushed up onto her head, she's wearing a gray hoodie with a white tank top underneath and a gold chain. She is hot. How can I control my feelings?

"I... I uhm, I'm thinking about a lot of things" I say pulling my gaze away from her

I almost wanted to say ' 8im thinking about your body on mine, if how your lips left on mine in the hospital, how you look now makes me want you', but I won't, I can't. There are so many other things happening.

Taylor's hand enters my field of vision and she grabs my hand out of my lap and intertwines her fingers with mine. She rests her hand on my lap and continues to drive. I'm taken aback by her actions. Her actions are so dominant, that I never noticed before.

"I'm here if you want to talk," she says squeezing my hand.

I nod my head, not trusting to think about the warmth from her hand spreading across my thighs and the heat burning at my core.

We pull up to a gated house and Taylor pulls the car in.

"This is a private house so nobody should bother us, you are welcome to stay however long you need," she says

The purple cast scratched my bare leg, I can't wait to get this off.

"Are you staying too?" I ask eyeing her

"Of course," she says putting the car into park.

I exit the car and grab my bag from the floorboard. I had some things with me, but Shawn never let me have anything that wouldn't fit inside of this duffle. His actions slightly becoming more clear the longer I'm away from him.

Taylor showed me around, where I'd be sleeping and the laundry, pool, and kitchen. It was pretty basic and I'd have no trouble remembering.

"I'm going to take a shower," I say

"Towels are in the linen closet in the bathroom, if you need anything just holler, I'll be downstairs probably replying to emails," Taylor says

I just nod and make my way into the room. Shutting the door behind me I notice it's a decent-sized room with a king bed and light fabric through the room. I walked into the bathroom and started the hit water.

I'd have to be careful because of the cast. As the water started filling the tub I couldn't stop the flow of tears coming from my eyes. How did my life come to this? How did I end up with Taylor? And Shawn. I had a decent life before my heart decided on Taylor. Does Taylor hate me now?

The tears in a flow as I wiped them away, I couldn't help the sobs that wracked my body becoming louder and louder. My head started pounding and I was miserable. I hated what had happened, that's why I let it get that far.

I jump back when arms circle me. Glancing up I see Taylor with sad eyes and that's all it to before I broke down into sobs again. She pulled me close and I gripped into her like my life depended on it.

Because in the end

It did.