Camila
I hung up on tree and sat at the island. My mind was going in many different directions, my heart fighting with my head.
Should I find her?
After what she did to you?
I was utterly torn. My heart and my head want two different things. I was broken and hurting, yet I still craved her presence.
"Bea," I whispered
She quickly looked over at me with a small smile.
"Tay is missing," I said, staring at the marble counter."
"Like missing missing," She asked, stepping closer
"I don't know"
I felt tears prick the corner of my eyes.
"I don't know what to do," I said, wiping a tear away
Bea was silent for a moment before she spoke up.
"You should go look for her- you know her the best, and even if your relationship is over, you got to admit she's been there for you when you were at you lowest, multiple times," she spoke
"So this time, be there for her."
I did need to be there for her. Unconsciously, I reached up to play with the necklace but came into contact with nothing- remembering what I did to it, and guilt pangs my chest.
"Here's my car keys." Bea slid them across the counter
"Bea, I can't take your car." I pushed the key back
"Don't be stupid- you need my car. Go find her." she pushed the keys back
"Bea-
"Nothing, go." she turned back around to continue the dishes.
Should I find her?
I tentatively grabbed the keys.
"Thank you," I said
Bea smiled over her shoulder as I stood and walked down the hallway. I can do this. I know I can.
I'll tell you the truth, but never goodbye
I couldn't say goodbye to her - not yet- not without an explanation.
I don't want to look at anything else now that I saw her- she changed my life, I must admit.
I don't want to think of anything else now that I thought of you
I've been sleeping so long in a 20-year night
And now I see daylight, and I only see daylight- she's my daylight
I unlock the car and open the garage door. Pulling out, I think of where she could be. I tried the apartment first. I know Tree will be headed there, but I must cover my spots.
The luck of the draw only draws the unlucky
And so I became the butt of the joke
I wounded the good, and I trusted the wicked
Clearing the air, I breathed in the smoke
Maybe you ran with the wolves and refused to settle down
Perhaps I've stormed out of every single room in this town
We threw out our cloaks and our daggers because it's morning now
It's brighter now, now
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
(I can never look away)
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
(Things will never be the same)
I've been sleeping so long in a 20-year dark night
(Now I'm wide awake)
And now I see daylight (Daylight), I only see daylight (Daylight)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
And I can still see it all (In my mind)
All of you, all of me (Intertwined)
I once believed love would be (Black and white)
But it's golden (Golden)
And I can still see it all (In my head)
Back and forth from New York (Sneaking in your bed)
I once believed love would be (Burning red)
But it's golden
Like daylight, like daylight
Like daylight, daylight
I don't wanna look at anything else now that I saw you
(I can never look away)
I don't wanna think of anything else now that I thought of you
(Things will never be the same)
I've been sleeping so long in a 20-year dark night
(Now I'm wide awake)
And now I see daylight (I see daylight), I only see daylight (Ah)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight (Ah)
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
I only see daylight, daylight, daylight, daylight
Like daylight
It's golden like daylight
You gotta step into the daylight and let it go
Just let it go, let it go
I wanna be defined by the things that I love
Not the things I hate
Not the things that I'm afraid of, I'm afraid of
Not the things that haunt me in the middle of the night
I, I just think that
You are what you love
I pulled up to the apartment, and there was a crowd outside, as always. I quickly got out, and the screaming started. I'm glad it was just her fans and not the paparazzi. The fans don't yell profanity at me. I pushed through the crowd and made my way inside.
"Tree," I called out
Silence
I must have beat her here. I pushed further into the apartment and noticed things were trashed. Not in a home invasion way- in a way that someone was pissed the fuck off. I walked around the shards of glass and went up to the bedroom. It was untouched, the bed was still made, and all hee clothes were in the closet.
"Taylor!" I yelled
Nobody called back, so I went downstairs. As I entered the kitchen, I noticed the empty wine rack; some bottles were broken on the floor, and the wine was in puddles.
Did Taylor do this?
I began cleaning up the mess, sweeping up the bits of glass, and then opened the kitchen closet to grab the mop when I heard the front door open.
"Hey, tree, I'm just cleaning up, " I called out
I brought the bucket to the sink and turned the water too hot, waiting for it to warm.
"Hokey shit, what happened " a deep voice groaned.
I suddenly was on edge- who the fuck was here. I step back, grab the hidden bat beside the island, and bring it over my shoulder. The person comes into the kitchen, and I realize who it is.
"Travis, why are you here?" I sneer and set the bat back down.
His eyes met mine and softened.
"To talk to you," he said
"I don't wanna talk to you," I snipped out and returned to the sink to see the hot water. I grabbed a cleaner from under the sink and added a capful to the bucket before I caught the sink's hose and pulled it over so the water could flow freely into the bucket.
"Please hear me out," he begged, stepping closer.
"You shouldn't be here," I said, not bothering to look in his direction.
"Yeah, then where's Taylor?" she bashed back
Ouch that hurt
"I'm here because she called me freaking out because you walked out," he said, setting his hand on the island.
He was mad.
"I'm not doing this with you," I spoke bluntly.
"She was so scared to lose you, Camila- one of her biggest fears that was becoming true right in front of her, and she couldn't stop it."
I turned the water off and set the mop in the bucket before ringing it out slightly and starting to mop up the mess.
"She should have thought of that before she cheated on me," I said
"Camila, I'm gay."
I halted my actions and looked over at him.
"You're just saying that to hide what you guys did," I said, eyeing him.
" Camila, she was having a breakdown in the car over losing you- she loves you so much that you are being blinded by things that aren't even there," he said, furrowing his eyebrows.
"I'm gay - I've been gay my entire life- my whole team knows it. And for a second, if I were to be into Taylor like that, I have the human decency to know she's single before ever thinking about making a move," he said, slightly angry.
I stood there, unsure of what to say. His words seemed valid- real, not forced. Was she telling me the truth? Was I the one overreacting?
"Travis," I whispered
"I know; please just find her," he begged
"Okay"
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