Inner Thoughts - Enoch O'Conner x reader

18. Yeah, why did you leave?

Enoch pov

After I talked to Lilly I went back up to my room to work on something. Olive walked in and didn't even bother to knock. She closed the door behind her, biting her lip. I smirked as I rolled my chair back. She locked the door and sat on my lap. I grabbed her waist as I kissed her passionately.

When we broke away from the kids she asked, "Do we have to keep doing this?"

 I furrowed my eyebrows, "Do you not want to? I know how you feel about me olive."

 She stuttered, "I-I do like you, Enoch, but-"

 "Then there's not a problem."

 She stood up and walked to the other side of my desk, "your girlfriend is pregnant with your baby and your cheating on her because you want something you can't get right now."

 "Of course I can get it now. I get it from you."

 "Enoch, that's not right. Y/n is my friend and I don't want to do this if I means hurting her. Did you ever actually love her? Or did you just say that to get what you want?"

 Olive has a point. I do love y/n. I told her I didn't love Olive. What am I doing? Why can't I stop doing it? "Olive, get out."

Olive snapped, "you can't just tell me to do what you want anym-"

I stood up and yelled, "Olive, GET OUT."

 She had fear in her eyes and started to tear up. I put my hands on my desk and looked down. She ran out with tears running down her face. She slammed the door. "FUCK!" I screamed. I can't explain this to y/n. She can't handle it. I sat back in my chair and covered my face. 

I started crying, something I haven't done in years.

Y/n pic

I looked down. There was a small red puddle forming. I couldn't move, I felt glued to the floor. The red puddle got bigger and another sharp pain was in my belly. Tears streamed down my face. Soon I was standing in the middle of the blood. I felt like I was stabbed. I dropped to my knees in the puddle. I kept my eyes on the window. The sun started to go down and the room turned a beautiful  dark golden color.

Then it suddenly hit me. I lost the baby. Tears started streaming down my face. I still can't move. I can't tell for Enoch or mom or Ms. Peregrine. I might be too far away to get Millard or Horace. I'll try to get someone.

'HELP.' Now I wait for something. I hope someone heard that thought.

Suddenly Victor walked past my door. "Hey, Y/n- what the fuck. Is that blood?!"

 "...Victor," I managed to choke out.

 "Don't worry, I'll find Millard and Horace and Emma."

I waited for about 20 minutes. I was still stuck to the floor but the tears has stopped. Horace gasped when he saw me. Millard squatted in front of me. He looked at Emma. She ran to get the bird. Millard hugged me and I hugged him back. "I lost the baby, Millard," I whispered in his ear.

Millard helped me stand up. I walked to the bathroom. Where the fuck is Enoch? You know what? I don't even care. I didn't want his baby anyway. I splashed my face with water and walked back out of the bathroom. Everyone except for Enoch was standing outside the bathroom when I opened the door. When I walked out and closed the door I found myself in a giant hug. "I thought you guys were in line for the bathroom," I chuckled. When they finally let go of me I walked back to my room and grabbed different clothes.

Everyone scattered away and went back to whatever they were doing. I knocked on Enoch's door. I'm a little frustrated that he was locked in his room. He opened it and sat back down. "Hi." He said flatly.

 "Enoch, I have something to tell you."

 "So do I." I was a little surprised when he said that.

 "She's gone."

He stood up and walked over to me, "what?"

 "She's gone. I need to clean her off the floor."

 He ran past me and into my room. He stood in the doorway and covered his mouth. I stood behind him. He put his arm free arm around me, "are you okay? Are you gonna be okay?"

 "Yeah I'm okay." I hug him, " what did you want to tell me?"

"I will always love you no matter what."

I hug him tighter, "I love you too."

Enoch pov

I can't tell her. She just lost our baby. Now what am I gonna do? Olive is probably gonna tell her or someone else. I let go of Y/n and went to my room. I grabbed some cleaning supplies and cleaned up the blood. After the stain was gone it was time for dinner. I sat in my usual spot next to Y/n. Olive wasn't her usual cheerful self. Lilly sat inbetween Victor and Millard. I remember when Lilly first entered the loop.

Lilly was this shy, super smart girl who loved reading. She had these cute little pigtails and always had some sort of book in her hand. Millard fell hard for her and they were together until she left the loop. We still don't know why she left but Millard was devastated. I can't imagine how Victor felt. Lilly was Victors best friend.

I dropped my fork and ducked under the table for a second. Lilly and Millard were holding hands, as they used to. I rolled my eyes and kept eating. Lilly kept talking about whatever until Claire asks, "Lilly, why did you leave?"

"Yeah mom, why did you leave?" Y/n chimed in.

Ms. Peregrine spoke up, "maybe that's a story for another time. Children finish up your dinner and get ready for movie time and the reset."

After movie time and the reset Lilly hugged us all goodbye and told us that she would be leaving tomorrow since she wasn't needed anymore. Millard was still talking to her at the front door before she left. I didn't question it much, but I was nice to see her even if she looked much older than us and was different than we remember.

Millard pov 

 "Lilly, why do you have to leave so soon? Why did you have to leave in the first place? I never stopped loving you and I finally tried to move on when you came back again!"

"Millard, I never stopped loving you either. I didn't want to leave you but I couldn't stay. And the reason for that is asleep in my old bedroom. I was surprised that she never turned invisible like you."

 "She reminds me a lot of you actually." I smiled to myself and looked down a bit, "but you didn't have to tell her I was killed by a hollow! That's a little much honestly."

Lilly made a face and rolled her eyes a little, "I thought it was for the best if y/n didn't know that her dad is an invisible 15 year old that never ages and is stuck permanently in a time loop."

"Okay, maybe you have a point." I sigh. It's hard not being able to tell y/n. And all that I have of Lilly are memories. Every time I look at her I see a girl with oversized glasses and a stack of books. We would sit in a tree and read for hours and share our thoughts about the book. She was the girl I fell for and the girl I dearly missed. Now she got rid of the glasses and the stack of books turned into a tote bag. The trees gone and she stands over me like my own mother. She's slightly taller than me now. When we met I was always the tall one.

Lilly leaned down and kissed me. A kiss I longed for a decade, more than. She pulled away and opened the door, a single tear fell from her eye, "goodbye, Millard."

"Goobye, my love. Until forever." She closed the door. I started to cry. I quickly wiped away my tears and rushed  upstairs so no one would notice.