Mercedez 3: Wildfire Games

Epilogue

I swore to myself that if I keep her, I can handle everything. I can fight for this girl, no matter what. That I will have the strength to face the uncertainties that lay ahead. That my love will be enough to fight for her head on.

Pero sobrang aga pa nga para magsalita ng tapos.

I took the day off.

I know, I know. I'm the CEO so technically, hindi dapat ako nagdiday off. But I miss my girl today and I want to spend the whole day with her. Just be cozy and comfortable in her den, with her wrapped inside my arms.

I think I looked so obviously crazy for a woman that when my dad asked me if I have a girlfriend, with a glint of curiosity and teasing in his eyes, hindi ako nakatanggi. And even if I deny it, hindi rin naman siya maniniwala. He caught me buying a very expensive customized bracelet na pambabae ang disenyo. It was my birthday gift for Hali. Dinala ko pa siya sa isa sa mga yate namin kaya paniguradong natunugan iyon ng ama ko. Ngumisi ako saka sinabi sa kanya na gumagawa pa ako ng paraan para maging opisyal ko na siya'ng kasintahan. Lying to my father is futile. Wala rin namang mawawala kapag sinabi ko ang totoo.

The proud look on my dad's face, made me chuckle. He did, too. Ah... We really are so much alike.

My brother looks like him, too, but his features are softer. My dad and I looked ruthless compared to him. Mukhang namana niya ang maamong mukha ni mommy na minsan lang namin nasisilayan. Madalas kasing nakataas ang kilay nito at araw araw na nagsusuplada. I notice her showing her softness whenever it's just the two of us alone though.

My dad didn't oppose my request of taking the day off work. Kaya naman nilisan ko kaagad ang kompanya. Dumaan muna ako sa isang bakeshop para ibili ng cake si Hali. Recently, mas lalo ko siyang nakikilala. Kaya naman, nang malaman kong paborito nilang magpipinsan ang CCD, doon na rin ako bumibili ng mga pastries at cakes na ipinapasalubong ko sa kanya. The happiness I saw everytime I bring her cakes before became ten times, reason why I know I made the right decision.

Bitbit ang paborito niyang cake at ice cream that I bought for take out, muli akong pumasok sa sasakyan. I put them sa may shotgun seat then I buckled my seat belt. I ignited the car and it roared to life. Saka ako nagmaneho paalis.

Habang nasa daan, biglang pumasok sa isip ko ang nangyari noong kaarawan niya. She was down and I clearly saw how disappointed she was despite the very grand bash her family threw for her. The reason? Her fucking bestfriend didn't show up.

Yes, Ylanier.

Honestly, kaunti nalang talaga maiinggit na ako sa lalaking iyon. That night, I really felt jealous. Doon na ako kinutuban na baka... baka may gusto rin siya sa kaibigan niya pero hindi niya pa napagtatanto. And that's what I fear the most. Her realizing her feelings for him.

Dumagdag pa noong isang araw na binisita ko siya ay naabutna ko siyang wala sa sarili at kahit anong pag uusisa ang gawin ko, iniiwas niya ang paksa. Ayaw niyang pag usapan. And I knew then, it was about him again.

It was like... what they had... or have... is already beyond me. Hinding hindi ako maaaring manghimasok, ni ang magtanong man lang. It was like they have their own reality that I cannot touch. At iyon ang mas masakit.

Kaya naman nang sabihin niya sa akin ang lahat, hindi na ako nagulat. But I was pained. Sinikap kong itago iyon sa kanya. But deep inside me, I know something shattered.

She told me how their relationship works. They are bestfriends, right. But, when she's not committed to someone, and when he's not committed to someone, they fuck each other. Hindi naman big deal sa akin iyon, body counts never mattered to me dahil napakahipokrito ko naman kung ganoon. I have my fair share of body counts, too, and I very much understand that we all have sexual needs and she is also open to that. Ngunit ang malaman na tanging si Ylan lang ang nakagalaw sa kanya at tanging siya lang ang ginagalaw ni Ylan, tuluyan iyong nagpayanig sa mundo ko.