I think I care too much I think that's my problem but I don't think it's a problem when it comes to you because usually all you ever do to me as make me worry
I think I care too much I think I care too much because of the fact that I know how replaceable I am I know you can look at another girl and tell her that she's so pretty and nice and kind and you can fall in love with her and act like I never existed
I think I care too much because of the fact that no one cared for me. If they did, they really didn't show it. Our personality makes up sometimes in certain situations makes up things we craved when we were kids I know that doesn't sound true, but listen in my head, it sounds true, because why am I so soft so caring and caring for everyone who doesn't even give a damn about if I lived or died at this point Only one person actually knows is barely here with me
I think I care too much about everything I cry over change in your voice so if someone yells at me, I'm so soft my heart can barely handle someone poking it the wrong way. Sometimes I can feel the veins in my heart burst as I cry I know that sounds unbelievable, but please, I feel pain in my heart when I cry at least believe that much..
I think I care too much about what other people think I based my clothes on what people like or what is trending around school if people commonly wear pajama pants, then I'll wear my pajamas to school if people commonly wear skinny jeans or jeans in general, I wear jeans if people wear skirts, I'll wear skirts. I don't base my outfits on what I like to wear. It's usually what people find interesting
I think I care too much, because I hate the thought of people not being cared for. I hate the thought of people being neglected and outed from groups or group projects I care too much because of the fact that I really didn't get cared for when I was in school, I care too much because the fact that I didn't really grow up with a lot of friends or a big friend group I mean yeah 3 to 2 friends stay by my side but still I don't want anyone to feel as alone as I did in middle school
I think I care too much because of the fact that I cry at the thought of being alone, or I cry at the thought of people leaving me I hate the idea of being alone, but in reality, we all end up alone at some point whether it's in our adulthood or our deathbed no one is actually ever going to stay and I realize that you die alone someone can't hold your hand while you're in the afterlife you walk alone down that bridge into heaven or hell, depending on where your personality lead you or if you don't believe in either one of those just paradise or torture, depending on where you think your choices might've lead you
I think I care too much because when I heard that somebody didn't like the way I sounded I stopped talking for a month and a half. I thought my voice is annoying, so I made sure no one ever had to hear it until a month later, when I finally spoke, it was one sentence And it was an answer to a math question. Of course I got it right because I studied but that's not the situation we are in
I think I care too much because of the fact that a girl laughed at me and said that I was stupid and dumb because of the fact that I have a learning disability, I never looked at myself the same I think I care too much about whatever people think about me I think too much. I'm over thinker . I self sabotage myself into thinking that everything that I ever do that I feel it is my fault which it is, it is true I could use some more studying I could pay attention more.
I think I care too much because I started crying during my first break up. I cried for two months, the third month I was OK but I cried nightly. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be my heart aches for a while my body felt ill for months, but I got over it , or at least I think I did and I don't think I did though doesn't matter or at least that's what I want to think
I think I care too much because of the fact that I lie about being OK and about not needing help I hate asking people for help. It seems pitiful to ask for help I like to do things on my own even if it means struggling and failing, I'd rather fail then ask for help because of the fact that I don't wanna bother people I don't like bothering people it makes me feel horrible about bothering people. I also don't want to tell people what's wrong with me if there is something wrong with me. It seems pitiful and pathetic to ask for help when I'm in pain or when I actually need help.
I think I care too much, because I still stood up for people who wouldn't even give a damn about me and talk behind my back I still cared about what other people said about them. I made sure they didn't ever say anything bad because I knew what type of person they were. They were a nice person even if they talked bad about me or even if they said rumors about me, I would still defend them because I'm not that type of person
I care too much because I can't stop caring my heart is too soft and my feelings are too emotional and connected with every single bone in my body every organ that I have bleeds emotions, whether it be anger, sadness, selfishness, nervousness, joy, every single bone and organ in my body has a purpose it is to make me live and feel, my heart is my biggest organ. It is the one that I want to get rid of the most because it makes me cry and it makes me turn itself into veins and since I've cried so much I'm starting to feel the veins in my heart tug on my rib cage. It hurts by the way, I'm sorry for telling you all of this but you're the only person I know that would actually care. Thank you for listening.
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