How can one so close become so far I don't understand. I thought it was perfect enough for you.
I'm tired of waiting for you to come back in the house feels cold when you're not in it get it feels peaceful when you weren't in it either the house somehow it feels warmer when you are here but seems chaotic when you are still here
How can one so far become so close?
I hold you close in my arms as you slowly fall asleep to me, breathing the wonderful memory that I ever play in my head daily it made me realize how grateful I was for you to be here with me
Get every time I hold you it feels like I'm holding a rose with so many thorns. My skin gets hurt as you leave bruises that seem to linger for years. It hurts as you run your hands over the bruises that you left telling me how you love me and hoping that you never get to see these bruises again it every time you say that new ones seem to reappear
How could you love me but disappear?
I never got the saying love you from a far because no matter how far I was you still seem to find out where exactly I was I don't get it if you loved me why did you leave? You told me you never leave me and your letters
The neatly folded letters, I have Tucktaway in my heart. I slowly read them, hoping that that version of you and the papers can come out and hug me and tell me that you were coming back soon. The house feels cold as you're not in it with the version that I fell in love with isn't
How can you love me if you're not here
Can you tell me it's not healthy to love me you tell me you can't stop loving me either you tried the thought of letting go you drive the thought of leaving but you don't want me to be in pain anymore how can you fall in love with a version of me, that is no longer there?
How can a heart be broken if we were never together?
Back when we were best friends used to break my heart all the time, and I hated you for it because you used to make me jealous. I'm guessing you did that a lot on purpose.
You broke my heart like glass. It was too easy for you. It seemed that way you made it seem like it was some game juggling my heart, until it finally broke like a mug I'm guessing you didn't mean to, but it's OK if you did, I'm not gonna blame you for it
How can you love me if you have no love love to give?
Drowned me in your affection, starve me of your touch then tell me I'm too much your words of affection, feel like flowers your touch feels like thorns yet, I hope you never stop hugging me I never want you to go yet I hope you do, I have so much love to give to the point it overflows. I have so much love that I can't even store it but you don't want it
How can someone need me when you didn't even want me
You seem to love me more when you leave, so why even bother coming back at all? I hate how you think just leaving is going to make me love you it hurts to be with somebody who does that but I can't complain because I let you come back.
How can you care when you're nonchalant?
You make me feel like you're caring is fake like you're caring is nonchalant you don't show it and honestly I wish you could but I don't think you can because you don't care I think you tried to care for me but that just didn't work out I'm guessing.
𝓖𝓲𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓼𝓹𝓪𝓬𝓮
