Falling Apart

The Bus

I went to bed every night feeling bad. Woke up feeling bad, did everything feeling bad. I couldn't help the fact that I had lost a friend. I mean she won't even talk to me.

It's been weeks and she won't even look at me. I've tried talking to her and apologizing but it all didn't work.

I woke up thinking of ways to try and make her see that I didn't mean to hurt her. Even if she did forgive me it'll still be hard to earn back her trust.

I groaned getting up, " Why did I have to be so stupid!" I said out loud.

I'm still going to try though. I'll make her know how much she means to me. I'll try and try until I earn her trust again and I won't..trust me..I won't mess up that trust again.

I got ready for school and headed out.

I walked to school and saw Madison ahead of me.

"Mads!" I called out to her and ran to reach to her side.

When she turned around and saw that it was me, she started to walk faster but I got in front of her and blocked her way.

"Get out of my way." she said calm but rudely.

"Mads please listen." I begged.

"First, don't call me Mads anymore. The only person that can call me Mads is Evan. Second, don't talk to me! How many times do I have to tell this!? What are you, stupid?!"

She walked past me but I stopped her. Angry flew all over me. I know I messed up but I'm trying.

"Hey, look it's not my fault if people don't really find interest in you, okay? Fine! Fine, I messed up but I am trying okay?!"

When that escaped my lips, I regretted it.

" What-?" She asked breaking down a bit.

" Mads-"

" Is that what you really think about me?!"

"No-"

She kept interrupting me, " I can't- I can't believe you! First you kiss my crush-"

Now it was my turn to interrupt," Yes, Crush! It was just a crush! Why can't you get over it! It was a mistake! I didn't mean to hurt you! This is why no one wants you as their girlfriend because you do such a bad job at at least being a friend!"

" Fuck you. " She spit out.

She saw a bus and she ran to it. Before she could get in I yelled, " Yeah, you want to, too!"

Madison was always so weird. if she saw a bus and she was sad or angry or annoyed she would go on it and it will release her stress.

I was too mad to go to school anyways so I headed back home.

I groaned and kicked rocks on my way home. I was mad. She mad me mad and I messed up again!

No wonder her name is Madison. Obviously her job on this earth is to make people mad.

I got home and opened my door.

I slammed the door closed and saw that my parent were home sitting in the living room. I looked at them both sitting on different couch. Something was up but I decided to ignore it. I went over to the fridge and got some orange juice, my favorite.

I walked over and sat next to my Mom.

She spoke," Crystal, we need to talk to you."

" Um..oka-"

Something caught my eyes on the News.

" This is News 12, reporting an accident just few minutes ago with Bus number 2. Doctors from Central Hospital are doing their best to make sure everyone is safe. But, I'm afraid some people will not make it." The lady in the TV said.

Bus 2? That's the bus Madison went on.

Oh God.

" Where are you going Crystal!?" My Dad yelled at me.

" I need to go to the h-h-hospital."

I walked out and slammed the door.

My heart sunk when the fact that she could be hurt. I kept saying little prayers on my way there.

I made it to the hospital and went to the front desk.

" Um. Hi. My name is Crystal and I'm here to see Madison. Madison Howard." I said this so quickly.

" Um Madison.?" The lady on the front desk that happened to be named Beth asked.

"Yeah. " I answered.

" Madison, is not on the list of people who made it here."

"Wha-?" I almost cried.