Fools

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The songs Fools from Troye Sivan happened to be playing while I was writing this chapter. So this happened. Thanks. Enjoy! ❤

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"I guess having a bruised face and busted lips is the key to get you in bed with me."

How wrong could that possibly sound? I couldn't believe my own words. I regret saying that. Everything was fine. I mean at least that's what I told myself until I decided to be a dumbass.

There was silence. It felt like it'll never end. I felt like I was being sucked in a hole to die slowly and painfully. Ugh, I'm such an idiot. A complete miserable idiot.

The silence keep haunting but in reality it was just a few seconds.

He got up, "I'm tired."

I knew he was lying, "Evan.."

"I'm going to sleep on the couch." He walked to the door.

"No. Please don't leave." I didn't realize that I had said that out loud.

He pretended like he didn't hear it. I could tell. I know him too well. I knew him, I correct myself. Things feel different. I hate change. He's being distant. I hate this. I hate everything.

I feel like I'm losing everything. Who am I kidding. This is isn't just a feeling. I am losing everything. I lost Keith, Madison, my Dad, and now Evan? I'm losing myself ,too. I can't stand to lose Evan. We've been through hell together. All three of us Mads, Evan, and I. We were so close. Why is this happening?

Before I knew it, I was running after him. This was my chance to keep my friend.

He was still outside his bedroom so I stood and faced him.

"Hey, I'm sorry. Do you wanna play truth or dare?" I asked. I don't know why that was the first thing that came to my mind.

"Crystal, I told you that I was tired."

I know he was lying, why did he keep pushing me away. Doesn't he get it? I'm losing everything. I can't lose him but if he's acting like this maybe I shouldn't even be here.

"You know what? Fine! If you're going to act like a little bitch then whatever!" I yelled. It just came out I didn't even mean for it to come out.

"Don't you even start with me, Crystal. You know its your fault that we're in this situation!"

"Oh please crucify me because I didn't know how you felt all along and you're blaming me for it! If you cared so much about me then why don't didn't just tell me?!" Coming here wasn't a good idea.

"You're so fucking selfish. Take sometime to consider how others feel for once! Do you know much it hurts to love someone and for them to always make you their second choice! Ever since you meet him it was like I suddenly disappeared like a fucking genie after you're done making your wishes!"

"Please you're making my ears hurt from whining like a little 3 year old! Stop always trying to blame Keith for your own damn insecurities!" I shouldn't have said that but it came out.

He laughs, " There you go again! Defending your perfect boyfriend. Why don't you just quit already he already cheated on you!"

I can't believe he said that. I've had the crappiest day ever and I think I've had about enough. I couldn't believe my ears. The worlds kept repeating themselves like echoes in my head.

"He already cheated on you."
"He already cheated on you."

That was it. I was done.

"You know what Evan? Fuck you." I almost sobbed.

I took off his shirt and threw it at him yelling, "Fuck you!"

I started walking towards the bathroom for my clothes. I was leaving. I didn't know where I was going. I know damn well it was going to be home but I'm not staying here with him. I didn't realize that I was crying until I tasted my tears.

I quickly put on my shirt and took of his sweatpants and wore my pants. I took his sweatpants and walked outside wiping my tears and threw it at him heading for the door.

"Hey!" He called out chasing after me. "Where are you going?!"

"I'm leaving! I shouldn't have came here! It's clear it was a dumb mistake and I'm leaving."

"No! Crystal it's dark! Where are you going to go!" He stood in front of the door so that I wouldn't leave.

"Oh now you care?! Huh! You didn't care a second ago! So get the fuck out of my way!"

"I've always cared Crystal! I've never not cared! Its too dark and you can get hurt.."

I shake my head sobbing, "Right now, I don't give a shit what happens to me. And you know damn well you don't either so stop your stupid act."

He was still at the door. Guess I had to force my way out. I went closer to him and tried to force my way out but he took ahold of me by my shoulders and pinned me against the wall trying to keep me from living then I saw my Dad. Oh no. What? So this whole time I was imaging Evan?

I yelled,"Get the fuck off of me Dad! Leave me alone!"

"What?" He still had a hold of me.

I needed to get away from him. I got the familiar looking bottle and hit him in the head and that did the trick.

I closed my eyes and felt him back away. I opened my eyes at the scream I heard and there was....Evan?

He was holding his head and frowning and I looked down at my hand to see myself holding a broom.

I dropped the broom and broke down crying.

"I'm sorry. I'm sorry." I shake my head and try to speak through my tears.

Evan came closer and hugged me from the back. I wanted to fight him of but I was tired. All I couldn't do was repeat that I'm sorry over and over again.

I was frightened.











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