Falling Apart

Safe..?

Hello! Back again with another chapter! ❤️ Enjoy!
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~Evan's POV

I want to go to like Taco Bell or something but I don't want to keep Crystal waiting. Taco Bell was too far and the only close place was Galaxy Diner. They have amazing coleslaw so that'll do.

I know she only wants fries but I had plans to force her into eating. Or at least try to.

Maybe bribe her. I don't know.

I get to Galaxy Diner after a 15 minutes walk only to have a long line waiting for me. I guess a lot of people don't want to eat here. All take outs.

"Ugh," I groan.

Curse this place, we don't have a lot of stores or food place that you can walk to.

My stomach growls and I look around to see if anyone noticed. The woman behind me with big sunglasses, gum in her mouth, and phone in her hand seem to notice.

We make eye contact and I smile awkwardly but she only pops her gum and goes back to her phone. Attitude much.

I turn around and frown. Such a bitch. I rub my hands on my face and I remember that I look like shit. I'm so tired.

I didn't get much sleep last night. But it was for a good reason. Crystal.

I felt so bad.

I feel so bad.

I don't know how to make her at least a little happy. I don't like seeing her that way. With tears staining her face, how she'd try to make it stop but end up sobbing more. She'd hiccup in between her tears and it's absolutely heartbreaking.

It sucks too. That I don't know what the fuck to do. Her life is so fucked right now and there's nothing I can do but be there for her which I will continue to do for as long as it takes.

The whole issue..it's fucked.

I'm surprised at the fact that I'm still functioning even a little bit.

I guess it's because I have to be strong. For her. I have to. If she breaks down and I do, too, then we're done for. I don't want this to fuck up her life. She didn't choose this. She doesn't deserve this.

The line moves a little closer. Finally, we're getting somewhere here.

"Can you move forward? Some people have places to be." I hear the lady behind me say.

I forgot to move up. Shit. I spaced out.

"Sorry." I mumble to her.

She pops her gum again.

"Whatever." She goes back to her phone.

I clench my jaw. A bad habit. I think I'm going to lose my shit.

I wonder how Crystal is doing back home. I start to miss her and it's only been 20 minutes. I should have taken her with me. I should have.

I start to feel uneasy. I should have taken her with me.

I should have.

I should call her. I tap around where my pockets are. Empty.

"Shit." I cuss at myself. I left my phone at home. I haven't even touched it since I slammed it against that wall.