Falling Apart

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I looked back one more time at the lady at the desk, Beth and moved faster making my way to Mads hospital room.

As I walk past the hall the place looks like...death. If you wondered how death looked like then this was it. I was freaked out but happy because now I know Mads was alive. Wait..maybe she was. They said she came here but doesn't mean she's alive. This thought made me shiver and my legs suddenly become so heavy to walk with.

My heart started to beat faster and faster and I could feel a drops of sweat on my forhead. I felt my eyes become watery as the tears rabidly fell down on my check, some entering my mouth. I wiped my eyes over and over and the hall just never seem to end. I would pass by people crying and I couldn't help but cry silently as well.

Some doctors were passing by me with someone laying next to them covered in white sheets all over their bodies. For a moment I thought I was a vampire because I could hear everything, the crying, screams, whispering, sobs, the doctors giving bad news. I could hear it all.

This was hell and I couldn't stand it. I walked faster and ran a little. I wiped the tears in my eyes and finally saw the room.

There was a figure sitting on the chairs next to the room and it was..Evan? It's yeah..him! His hair covering his face and both hands on his knees. He was looking down and from my distant you could only see his pink lips, and just a bit of his face. I never really noticed but he's quite hot. I knew how his face looked and I thought he was cute but I never really looked. I shake the thought out of my head, I'm not about to hit on my bestfriend.

He looked up and his hair perfectly fell on the right side of face reveling his face.

"Crystal," he stood up and walked over hugging with his hands around my waist. The best hugs, he always hugged me that way and I don't know why but I loved it.

"Hey," I hugged him back.

He pulled away, back away but stayed just as close.

" Have you been crying?" He asked concerned.

"Maybe, yeah. I can't help it. M-Mads in t-there." I could fell my eyes start to water again.

"She's going to be just fine." He pulled me into another warming hug.

We went over and sat down and tried to catch my breath.

" Did you guys figure things out? I mean she was pretty mad the other day. Actually she was mad everyday." He whispered. It was way too quiet now to make so much noise.

"No." I looked down at my hands and played with them slowly. " I tried you know. She just doesn't want to listen."

"You know, she's even way mad because she had to find out on Instagram. You should have been the one to tell her."

" I was going to. I-I was so scared and, and, I was going to but it was too late. I needed time to know what to say."

"I guess but you should have told her exactly when it happened." He looked up in at the ceiling.

" What was I suppose to say? Imagine if you were the one who kissed Kyle. Wha-what would you have said to her. Oh Mads I kissed him."

" I know for a fact that that would never, mark my words, never happen. I'm not gay." He smiled. He looked so cute smiling. It was just one of those smiles that would make you smile as well. Even if you were sad, you would smile. I found myself staring at his lips and I quickly looked down.

"Why Kyle though? I really don't see what people see in him." He frowned, " Even boys thinks he's hot!"

I laughed shaking my head, " I didn't mean to kiss him. He came at me."

"But you kissed him, right?" He looked a bit sad you would say when he said that.

" Yeah, but in my defense, I thought it was Kieth for just a second. I swear after I realize who it was I broke the kiss."

" Keith? Why-? You're still not over that cheating bastard?"

" I am," I said in a whisper because I knew that was a lie. I still liked Keith just a little bit.

" You are." He looked away. He knew I was lying.

" You know he never really deserved you. You should forget about him. I mean the guy is a douche and he's clearly very stupid as well. Who cheats on someone as beautiful, kind, like you for a girl like Betty? It's like settling for a penny when you can have like can have like a dollar or something."

"Thank you! I am worth a dollar!" I smiled and blushed a little. Something was wrong with me. I never used to blush or anything when he complimented me. I took a deep breath and pushed the thought way back. He's your friend nothing more. I reminded myself. You definitely don't have a crush on him.

" You're blushing!" He looked at me and put both his on my cheeks and played with them as if I were a baby.

"Stop!" I pushed his hands aways from my face and pouted, " I'm not a baby."

"But you're always be my baby." He smiled one of my favorite things about Evan. His smile. I smiled back at him and playfully punched him.

"I'm going to tell my Mom!" He gasped.

We talked more after that and it was amazing. One of the doctors came out and we both stood up.

"Doctor!" I almost yelled.

"Is she okay?"