Falling Apart

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"This isn't going to make me forgive you completely, so don't get any ideas." I frown.

"I know," She frowns and looks down.

I wince, "I need to see Evan."

She looks up, mouth open, "Crystal, you can't leave. Not like this."

"But I'm fine, mother."

"You're not fine, you can barely walk or stand! Come on, sit down." She begins to walk over to me and I'm too slow to back down.

"Get away from me, mom! I-I-Stop!" I push her away but she smiles weakly.

"Why are you smiling? What's funny?" I frown, holding my stomach.

"It's just..it's the first time you called me mom in a while."

"Well, don't get used to it. It wont happen again." I swallow.

No matter what she did to me, I still love her and I feel bad for treating her this way but she has to know how deeply she hurt me. Usually when children are scared, their first instinct is to call for their mom and I feel like I can't even do it. She let me down when I needed her the most, she can do it again and I'm not going to allow that.

"I know that you're hurt and you don't wanna keep talking about this but I'm your mother and I'm really trying!" She talks rapidly almost yelling.

"How dare you?" I ask getting angry by the second.

"I can't undo my mistakes but I can be better, I can, I know I can!"

"You don't deserve another chance! You watch me get hurt! That's not a mistake, mother!"I scream ignoring the pain that's shooting from my stomach.

"If you're not going to help me see Evan, then leave. Get. Out." I say firmly.

"I'm not leaving."

I stare at her turning red in anger.

She almost looks..scared for a second but slowly changes her expression.

"I won't leave you again. Not this time, not when you need me."

"I don't need you." I say before thinking and I can see that it hurt her.

"I need Evan and if you're not gonna help me get out of here, then please leave."

"But you're hurt. Physically. You need to rest."

"I'm fine. I-I-I'm okay." I lie terribly.

"You're not." She shakes her head and sighs.

I close my eyes and fake a smile; the best I could come up with.

"I'm fine. I can go--I can--I'm fine."

"You're not." She repeats.

I close my eyes and it stings; tears, great.

"Then please go." I whisper, biting my tongue to prevent tears from falling from my eyes and I fail terribly.

I place my right hand over my stomach and the other hand over my mouth and I sob.

"Why..w-why did--why did you let it happen? Why..is this happening to me?" I sob as I fall to the ground and she comes behind me.

She hugs me tightly.

"No--don't touch--no." I try to push her away but she just hugs me tighter.