Falling Apart

Man Down

Elo! It's been tough to update. Everything's been crazy but I hope you enjoy this chapter! *PLEASE EXCUSE ANY ERRORS*

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"So what was the deal with you and Evan today?" Madison asks.

"What do you mean?" I ask feeling uneasy.

Evan went to his house to get the gun and he promised to pick me up so we can return it. I had to go with Mads to her house so that we don't look too suspicious.

We didn't tell Mads anything about how today came to be because we would have to tell her the whole thing. Evan and I did come up with a lie yet so I have to think quick!

"Today, you two were the talk of the school. You got into a fight, Crystal, and you sent her to the hospital or so I hear."

"I was just upset." I say quickly.

"So, you took it out on her? You know you could have texted me and it would have been all better."

"I can't. I don't have my phone anymore."

"What happened to it?"

"I..I don't know." I say looking down.

The memory of that night coming back. So clear and I can feel my eyes start to sting.

I feel myself start to tense up at the memory, I start to feel the blood on my arm, the tears, my mom begging for me to understand and I can hear her voice, I can hear the crack in her voice tormenting me.

I can hear my Father's body being pulled out, I can hear the door shut, I can hear the footsteps coming closer and I shudder.

I shake my head violently before I get in too deep. 

"What's wrong? What aren't you telling me?"

"Nothing, Mads." I rub my face. 

The tears are threatening to fall but I can't let them show. 

I feel her approach me and she reaches out to me. I flinch and she looks hurt. 

"I'm sorry..I..I'm just cold." 

"It's beautiful outside." She frowns. 

"Not to me, it's not." 

"Fine, whatever. Here's the clothes." She throws a pair of jeans and a clean black shirt at me from her closet. "Go change, you look like you killed someone." 

My heart skips a bit and it starts to beat fast again my chest like a hammer. I didn't kill anyone so why did I feel like..like this?

I head over to the bathroom, trembling. 

Deep breath, Crystal. Deep breath. 

I suddenly feel anxious. I can feel the pit of my stomach turning and I feel nauseous. 

I quickly splash water on my face. I fix my hair and my knuckles, they're red. 

The nauseous feeling returns and I run to the toilet and let out the vomit. 

I wipe my mouth with the back of my hand and I see blood. 

I walk to sink and look at my hands, trembling and realize I'm just seeing things.

I'm losing my shit. 

I wash and rinse my mouth. I sigh and I stare at what my life has come to. 

I run a finger up and down my face and before I know it, I begin to sob. 

I put my hands on my mouth to stop any noise from escaping so that I'm not heard by Mads.