Falling Apart

The Kiss

"Um..what is it?" I asked with curiousity written all over my face.

He stayed silent.

I blinked several times. Okay, so this was getting awkward. He stared at me, I stared back. I sees I could see a grin on his soft looking pink lips.

His lips, they remind me of Keith's lips. So soft and so kissable. If you ever wondered how it would be like to kiss an angel then Keith's there for you!

It's either I was going blind or his face was moving closer. I stood still, looking at his lips, thinking of Keith and then next thing I knew, I felt lips on my lips. Ahh..heaven I thought. I'm kissing Keith again. I kissed him back, wanting my boyfriend. The one that didn't kiss Betty.

Then reality hit me in the face! This isn't Keith! It's Kyle! Mads crush!

I pulled away breaking the kiss.

I lick my lips and try my best to catch my breathe, " why-? Wha-.! My lips! Your lips! What?!" I was scared and I felt guilt run all over my body. If Mads found out, she would be so upset.

I just..! What kind of friend am I! I reach for the doorknob and open it panicking. Doesn't sound like a big deal? Well it is! Imagine having a best friend that you told everything to, kiss your crush when they know that that particular person is your crush!

"Crystal.." Kyle began.

" No. You shouldn't have done that." I said almost in a whisper.

" Why..? "

" Just because.."

"Crystal.."

" Please, can you just go home..?" I get in my house and shut the door behind me before he got a chance to say anything.

I go upstairs, go into my room and turn on the light then sit on my bed.

" Shit!!" I curse to myself! How could I be so stupid? I lay down on my bed with my hands on my eyes. I honestly felt like crying.

The Next Day

I don't want to go to school. I don't want to see anyone. I feel so shitty.

I probably hate myself more than she's even gonna hate me.

I have to go to school. I can't skip.

" Ugh!" I groan.

I take a shower and do everything that I do to get ready and what happened last night was all that was on my mind.

I didn't even bother to eat breakfast cause there was none either!

I don't want to see Mads. Then I'll feel like crying again! I have to tell her the truth which is even worse. It's gonna break her heart. She's always had trust issues and she trusted me with everything and that trust..God it's just all going to go away.

Maybe I should run to school so that I don't have to tell her right away! Yeah that's a better idea. I start running, I pass her street and keep running some more so she couldn't catch up if she behind me.

I get to school and I'm all sweaty. Ugh I'm sticky and it's disgusting but I had no choice.

But just when I think I'm saved, I see Mads...