Falling Apart

Awake

Omg omg this is the 40th chapter of Falling Apart! I didn't know I would make it this far and I'm so happy XD! Thanks for reading and I hope you enjoy this chapter! *PLEASE EXCUSE ANY ERRORS*

******************************
The shot was meant for Evan but I couldn't get us both away in time for neither of us to get hurt.

So I took the shot.

I wasn't thinking but I'm glad I did it.

He has done so much for me and that's the least I could do for him. I wasn't going to let him get hurt because of me.

Now I'm watching him fall apart in front of my eyes and I know he's blaming himself but it's not his fault.

I want to tell him but I can barely move. The pain is unbearable and I'm bleeding so much. Every time I try to speak, I cough instead.

It's harder to breathe this way. My lungs seems to be shut. The pain is traveling to my head and it aches.

Tears fill my eyes and they fall down on the side of my face into my ears and around.

Please don't cry.

I want to say that so badly. He's sobbing so much. It would be adorable if it was a different situation.

I mean I'm basically dying but at least he's by my side.

If I go now, he'll be the last thing that I see and to me, that's perfect.

This place is so empty. The roads are so isolated. We're the only two here. I'm pretty sure the guy that shot me left.

He looks a lot similar, too. Maybe I was just being paranoid.

Evan is still sobbing and my heart aches for him. Even if I'm in pain, it hurts even more to see him this way too. I wish there was a way to make him stop but I can barely speak.

He's talking so much, apologizing but it's not his fault. I just want to silence him with a kiss.

I think back to our shower and it seems to make the pain go away a little.

" I love you." He said.

" I love you." I replied.

We were both naked for the first time. My cheeks were flushed and so was his.

We weren't thinking, we just let out hearts guide us.

He kissed my neck so lovingly as the warm water washed away our pain.

A soft moan escaped my lips and I was well aware that we weren't alone in the house and I didn't care.

We shared the most amazing, passionate, breath-taking kiss as his hands roamed my body.

I felt so comfortable, so warm, so loved with him.

Our foreheads connected and we gasped for air.

I smiled as he grabbed my chin and brought my lips to his.

I smiled into the kiss as I wrapped my hands around his waist bringing him closer to me.

The way he kissed me told me that this was more than just lust.

Which is why my first time was special.

"I.. love y-you.." I choke out.

"No, no, no, Crystal, stay with me." He says.

It's getting to hard to stay awake. My eyes are closing but I'm fighting to keep them open.