Falling Apart

Fight

"I love you,"

Those words. I was dying to hear those a three precious words. I was longing for it. I was secretly hoping that's what he was about to say as I had my hand on his face and as he blushed lightly.

My heart was beating faster and faster as he struggle to make up the words making him repeat " I" over and over.

I wanted him to say it, but then was scared. If he did, what was I supposed to do? If I gave us a chance, where would that leave our friendship if this doesn't work? Our whole live together as bestfriends would be ruined! But...but maybe if us being together did work then maybe we'd end up getting married and living in a castle, have like ten babies and have a constipated kangaroo as a pet-- wait what am I thinking?

I shake my head and wait for what felt like a million years. He finally looked up straight in my eyes and shut his lips into a straight line.

"I.." He began and my heart beat started pounding on my chest fast again. I swear I thought it was going to come out my body any second.

" I don't owe you an explanation." He finally said.

WHAT?!

I moved a bit away from him as he's face turned into a mad expression.

"Wait what?! You do owe an explanation! You can't just yell and get mad for no reason and for me to have absolutely no explanation at all?!!!"

"Well you don't deserve to know anything anyways! It's not like it'll matter! You're just never going to get over him! It'll always be him! After everything, everything, it'll still be him! So I don't owe you an explanation!"

"What the fuck Evan! You don't make any sense! What the hell is that supposed to mean anyway?!"

I was getting really really upset! No, wait, no, I was really really upset! I had to much going on in my life and I couldn't deal with this too. Madison stopped talking to me, then my parents drop this big bomb on me about a divorce, they fight and fight, and then this--this, Beth, she comes out of the blue, making promises that's making me scared to the bones, and then Evan, he has to be crazy! It's bad enough that I have a crush on him, then he starts acting like a fucking dick all of a sudden, and for what?!!

I don't understand! I'm so upset it's not funny! I could feel my eyes tearing up and I rapidly blinked away the tears before he noticed them.

He didn't say anything just stared at me for a while.

"What?! Are you just going to stare at me?! It's not like you have feelings for me now! You're acting like a jealous boyfriend!" These words escaped my lips before I had a chance to think of what I was saying. And I immediately regretted because the look on his face..he looked so sad. Like a lost puppy. I mean he looked incredibly adorable but he looked really sad and I didn't know what to do or say so I just swallowed hard and stared at him.

"But I--" just as Evan was about to say something, I learn my name being called loud and clear on the speaker.

" Crystal, please report to the main office. Crystal, please report to the main office."

Huh? Me? What?

What did I do wrong? Am I in trouble? I never used to be called for nothing. And at this moment?! I'm trying to figure stuff out but really? Now?!

I look back at Evan and he starts to walk away and that makes me even more mad.

"What?" I asked myself as he walked away. "So, you're just going to fucking walk away?!" I then yelled out.

He stops in his tracks.

"You're an ass you know?" I told him.

He still had his back to me. I was so mad and I couldn't take it anymore. So I decided to walk away. I didn't need this.

But then I heard footsteps behind and soon after I was yanked back and pinned against the wall.

"Evan-" I was interrupted by a kiss. Evan kissed me. Evan kissed me!

At first I was too mad but then everything just happened so quickly and I found myself kissing him back.

His kiss made my stomach explode with butterflies and it was with so much desire and passion. It was nothing like the kiss I shared with Keith.

He pulled me close with his left hand and placed it around my waist..oh I loved that. And his right hand was placed on my cheek deepening the kiss. I kissed him back putting the same pressure. I wanted to kiss him ever since the hospital and it's been driving me crazy. His lips were so soft, and heavenly. Just like I imagined it.

He ran his hand in my hair and pushed slowly against the wall and places both his hand on my waist and deepened the kiss even more making me my whole world spark. I placed my hand on his hair and played with it as we kissed and he moaned against my lips.

Then suddenly I heard someone clear their throat. And just like that the kiss was broken. I look over to see who it was and it was my principle. I suddenly blushed in embarrassment. I can't believe my principe saw that. I can't even make eye contact with the principle anymore, (Principle Johnson) and I look back at Evan who was blushing like an idiot, when trying to act like nothing happened. His hair fell down on his face covering a bit of his eyes. And the way his lips were perfect, as he lick them and as I stare at him I bit down my bottom lip to keep me from smiling.

Principle Johnson clears his throat again, bringing me back to reality.

"Uh, " I totally didn't know what to say but I had to say something.

"Crystal, we need to talk." Principle Johnson said with totally seriousness. "In my office."

Office? I suddenly start to feel nervous. I had a feeling this wasn't good.