Falling Apart

Crush..?

" I want to tell you something." Evan said as he ran his hand in my hair. God did I love the feeling of his touch.

"Yeah? What is it?" I smiled as I looked at the ceiling and around his wall. We were in his room and I was laying on his lap and he was sitting up looking down at me.

He didn't say anything yet but just looked at me and blushed a little then smiled softly.

" I love you."

I smiled and blushed like crazy. He said it. He said the three words I've been dying to hear.

" I don't think you do." I lied.

"What-? I love do love you. I love you very much. I can't stop thinking about you. I love you."

"Then prove it," I challenged.

"Alright. I'll show you just how much I love you." He leaned down and pressed his lips against mine and kissed me softly. He kissed me more and more and the more he kissed me the more the kiss deepened.

I sat up so that I could kiss him better and he placed me on his lap and both his hands were on my hips. We kissed more and I pushed him down on the bed making it move.

"I still don't believe you, you know. " I said smiling.

"I'll prove it, and when I'm done you'll be speechless."

"Mmm..let's see about that," I attacked him with another deep kiss.

I pushed me off him and I fell on the other side of the bed and he quickly lay on top of me.

He stared down at me and I could fell my cheek darken and I knew I was blushing.

"You're so beautiful," he smiled.

He kissed me again and took my shirt off.

"I'll wreck you," he said with a evil yet sexy grin on his pink lips.

"I dare you," I challenged him.

And the nothing but darkness took place.

*Dream Ends*

"Ughhh!" I groaned out loud kicked my legs on my bed in anger. "What the fuck! Why did it have to end there?!" I whined.

I turned around on my bed burying my face in my pillow and tried to think about what was happening in the dream then maybe, just maybe it'll come back.

After 20 minutes of failure I stood up from my bed, walked over to my mirror, stared at myself and screamed.

Why does it have to be him? Why? He's my bestfriend why him? To even think that that could happen and getting mad over some dream?! Oh my God, not to mention yesterday! I can't believe I thought he was going to kiss me!I was actually kind of upset at him because he didn't kiss me.

I remember it too clearly it's sad;

His face was getting closer to mine and I froze. It came closer and closer and I shut my eyes waiting for what was about to come for me. I was scared but I wanted it to happen. If he was going to kiss me then I would have gladly kissed him back. I've been longing for those beautiful pink lips theses days and it's been driving me insane.

I waiting for what seem like forever for something that never came except a peck on the cheek.

" Don't be mad, Crystal." He said after pecking my cheek, "She'll finally give in."

" I said I'm done. I can't deal with it anymore. If she wants to be friends with me, if she was really my friend since the first time anyways she'll forgive me. Everyone makes mistakes, I'm her bestfri-," I corrected myself," I was her bestfriend. If she really wanted to be my friend she'll understand. "

" I get where you're coming from but you know how Mads is. She can hold grudges and say things she doesn't mean. "

"She can hold grudges alright and she made it very clear that she doesn't want to be my friend." I continued,"And over some guy? Are you-are you bullshitting me right now?"

There was silence between us for a while and I wanted to leave. I was upset about three things. One, because of Madison's dumb self. Two, because Evan didn't kiss me. Third, which got me very very mad, I was mad at myself for expecting him to actually kiss me.

I can't believe this is happening. I'm crushing on Evan! Oh God. I've been in denial and it's maked me like him even more.

I stared myself in the mirror and sighed deeply," Okay, okay, it's just a crush. It'll go away eventually. Plus this is Evan, it's probably just a phase?" The last one was definitely a question. A question that I don't think I'll be able to answer.

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I got to school and I didn't bother to look for Evan or anybody. Madison was probably still in the hospital and right then I couldn't give a rats ass. Mean? I know but she wanted me out of her life, she got what she wanted.

I was walking over to my locker and somebody had to bother me. And out of all the people you could find it had to be Keith.

I didn't give him a chance to talk," Fuck off."

"Well hello to you,too." God I hated it when he did that.

"Leave me alone Keith. You got what you wanted, just leave okay?"

"Mad about Madison yeah?" He asked leaning against a locker next to me.

" We're not friends anymore." I said coldly.

"No, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about the little accident the other day."

"How do you know about that? She got hurt so take that stupid smile off your face."

"Oh yes I know she did." He started walking away with that stupid smile on this face.

"What the hell is that suppose to mean?!" I yelled at him.

"Well," he turned back and whispers so that only I can hear," Let's just say I'm somewhat connected to it."

"What?" I asked confused.

"I don't know, you tell me." And with that he left.

What the hell? I was left standing there confused. What does he mean by ' somewhat connected' ?

Kieth was hiding something and I had a bad feeling about it.