Falling Apart

Killer..?

Heyllo! Sippy Cup goes well with this chapter!

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I felt my heart rate start to speed up as I stared at my mom.

My hands start to shake and the blood seems to rush to my heart faster than ever making it hurt.

My eyes tear up as I fight the urge to scream.

My mom was covered in blood, her white shirt turning into a disgusting color that I wish I never saw.

Her eyes were bloodshot red and her cheeks were stained with tears. Her eyes were opened wide as she stared between me and my father who was laying on the floor...dead?

She had a knife in her hands which was painted in my father's blood.

When I finally put in together that my mom...my mom killed my father, I couldn't breath.

My breath seemed to be stuck inside my through making it really hard for me to breathe. My hands were shaking as I brought them to my mouth to silence the cries that were unwantedly showing up.

I shook my head repeatedly hoping that what I was seeing wasn't really happening.

"M-mom..?" I cry.

"Crystal..." She gets up, knife still in and and starts to approach me, I start to back away.

"No..no.." She cries.

I can't help my feet, they just keep moving back as I I shake my head and cry.

Her eyes, they were so dark. Not the usual colors that I loved. Her face had blood on it, too, which freaked me out.

She kept moving closer with that knife in her hand.

This is it, this is how I'm going to die.
My father tried to rape me a day ago and then I find him dead and my mom killed him and she's going to kill me, too.

"No!" She shut the door behind me so that I wouldn't leave.

Her voice so loud, made me stop in my tracks and I couldn't stop shaking.

She realized I was scared of her and she immediately dropped the knife and her eyed started to water.

"I'm sorry baby- this is not what it looks like-- I'm so sorry!I didn't know what to do-- I'm sor-I'm so sorry." She tried explaining in between her cry. She kept trying to get close to me and as soon as I realized that the space between us wasn't as far away as I wanted it to be, I shook my head rapidly. Too fast.

"No, no!" I cried, "You killed him."

The words tasted sour in my mouth mixed with salt from my tired eyes.

"You don't understand, he--he attacked me! Baby, I saw what he tried to do to you, and I didn't know what to do! I tried talking to him but he attacked me! I did it--"

Am I hearing this right?

"He tried to rape me and you were there but you didn't do anything?!" I can't help the tears that are forming in my eyes. More and more.

I can't control the hatred that I feel towards her right now.

"I didn't know what to do! I thought he was only going to yell because you came late, but he hit you and I'm sorry honey--" she tried to touch me for what seemed like the thousandth time with her bloody hands.

"Don't touch me! I'm calling the police before you fucking kill me too!" I yelled.

"No, no don't! Crystal, don't!" She follows me. As soon as I get the phone she takes it away.