Sneaky Link

Sneaky Link (26)

Ellie had been my best friend since high school and that only stopped after we broke up. But after we got our heads together we went back to normal. So I knew this was something she would understand.

"Why me? Why not Sandy?" We sat on her couch as some anime was playing in the background. "Because she will only be on my side she'll pretend to be mad at Billie but she won't be honest. You will, you'll tell me If I'm blowing this out of proportion. Because I've done that with you before." I explained now facing my body to her instead of the show.

"We're you crying"? I nodded. "I was." A big thing to admit when I'm used to just wiping the tears away and lying about it, blaming it on allergies. "Was she"? I shook my head. "She didn't even go after me or ask if I was okay. No text after it, nothing."

We sat there for a couple hours going over each scenario I had and for every scenario she was reasonable and helped me reason myself out of most of them. She gave Billie the benefit of the doubt as I had.

"Maybe she does really feel that it's the only way she can have you and her career. But stop talking to me about it. Talk it out with her. Listen to her you sick fuck." She pushed my shoulder away from her. "Oh so now I'm the sick fuck"? I laughed pushing her shoulder.

"I just don't want to do it today." I sighed. "I feel more exhausted now then when I went in that hike with Claudia." Her mouth opened wide. "Oh okay. Oh okay. So you go in hikes now. But all those years ago when I'd beg for you to join me on my walks or runs. What happened then?"

"I'm a changed man. What can I say." She pulled out a little box. "The fuck is that little square?" I asked. She smiled with a little hint of evil in there. "A boof." My eyebrows crossed on confusion. "A vape idiot."

"Ughhh you're one of those kids."

"Shut up. You'd die for one of these in high school." She wasn't wrong. "Let me tryyy." She shook her head immediately. "I wouldn't want to put you through this addiction. You're too innocent." She put her hand on my thigh. I pushed it off. "Oh shut up." I grabbed it out of her hand and took the biggest hit of my life. "Ew what th-" I coughed out so much smoke. "That's disgusting. That tastes like fucking fluoride." I handed her back the vape but she was too busy laughing. I tried to wash the taste out of my mouth by drinking the water she had offered me when I was crying.

"Can I spend the night"? I asked not wanting to go back home where I would find myself in front of the mess I had made of my home from trying to make Billie a little surprise date. "Yes, you're welcome to stay. As long as you, buy us some food." She started rubbing her belly. "Okay okay what do you desire."

We ordered so much food it filled up the whole table. We got Chinese, Indian, Vietnamese, and of course just some regular old burgers and fries. Can't forget Ellie's strawberry milkshake. I grabbed a fry and looked at it with disgust. "I can't eat another fry." I put it back down and rubbed my own full belly.

"Belly Ellie. Can I have a blanket?" I asked feeling like a little kid again. I laid my head onto the pillow which was hard as fuck. "And an actual pillow for use. Not for show." I yelled into the open room.

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I'm the night I couldn't sleep. I kept closing my eyes and thinking about her. Her pale skin and pink lips. The way her hands held anything. I just couldn't get her out of my mind and I didn't want to. It was like she had put a hex on me.

Your first love was supposed to be the strongest. But this feels like everything. Like a wave, no a tsunami of emotions filling me up by the second.

"Can't sleep"? I shook my head at her figure leaning on the wall. "Can't stop thinking." With a slight nod she made her way to me. "You want to watch a movie." I shook my head. "I should sleep. I should. I should go see her. Right?"