TW: suicide, sh, overdose
Do you know that feeling when nothing bad happens but you're just sad and then you tell someone you're sad and they want to know a reason and you tell them there isn't one and they seek disappointed by that answer because without a reason they can't fix the problem and make you happy?
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You sat on the bedroom floor with your blade in your hands. It'd been a whime since you had cut yourself but you couldn't not anymore. You pulled down your sweats and then cut, back and forth and back and forth. So many times until you simply can't bear it anymore. Then you sit there and pathetically cry. Then you look at the time. "12:51 am" everyone should be asleep it'd be easy to sneak out. So you do, you grab your bag and go. You go into the woods and then sit down and take all the tablets. 30 of them. All swallowed in 3 big gulps then yoi lean back and wait.
The feeling washes over you, the dizziness the head spinning the tiredness so you let yourself sleep. And you don't wake up. You're finally free, free from everything from all the pain all the suffering its all gone. All gone.
Mountain and Rain found you the next morning, they carried you back to the ministry and the doctors tried to help you but it was too late, you were dead. You were finally fucking free. The moment the news was broken to everyone things changed, everything was different. The ministry was darker everything was sad. There were portraits of you hung up and a funeral even more extravagant than Papa Nihils. Even sister Imperator cried at your funeral everyone did. They had lost their Hest friend everyone had. Everyone lost someone special to them in their own way. Hell was lonely at first but yoi got used to it knowing you'd see the ghouls soon enough.
And you did, you saw Aether about 1 month later, then the rest of them slowly came down one by one. And they weren't mad at you they knew how much you struggled but they were sad and scared theyd lose you all over again. They were super overprotective now and never left your side
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To all of my friends that will read this and ask if it's about them no its not, I'm just bad atm and I can't do this anymore
