Request by TheRealistMf
TW: past self-harm and urges
(Sory for more spelling mistakes than usualim kinda crying rn so)
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You sat in your bed with your old blade in your hand. You've been trying to quit, so hard but it is so hard not to. You didn't realise when the tears started pouring from your eyes and onto the blade and your bed. All of a sudden the door opens, you look up and see Rain stood in your door. When you see him you breakdown crying and jump up and hug him and he softly shushes you and then picks you up and brings you to your bed. He grabs the blade and puts it in the wrapper and in his pocket. "Did you do anyth-" He starts and you grab onto him tighter. "It's so hard not to! I didn't, I didn't do anything." You sob into his shoulder. You both sit there together for aboit 10 minutes as you cry out all the pain you've been hiding from everyone.
When you start to calm down you immediately say sorry. He shushes you and rubs your back gently. "Don't be sorry, I'm sorry I didn't realise sooner." He says and you sniffle. "Just looking at the scars, them begging to open, I just- I want to see my blood dripping down my arm. I- I uhm I cut my thighs once, a week ago, I couldn't help it I just- I can't do this anymore." You cry, wail and he just holds you, and let's you cry, no judgement.
When you calm down again you grab some tissue and clean up your face. "How do you feel now?" Rain asks and you can't be bothered to lie anymore. "I want to cut, I need to cut." You say and he nods and then picks you up and carries you to his room. "Do you wanna stay in here tonight?" He asks and you nod, the tiredness from crying already settling in. You lay down in his bed and he gets up to leave but you whine and pull him back. He smiles and then gets in bed next to you and cuddles you close to him and you show a faint smile before drifting into a dreamless sleep.
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I'm really sorry this is so short, I just wanted to write something and I have requests so I tried to write this, ik its crap, sorry
I'm really sorry it's bad af and really short
