This is bad, very bad
TW:Sh, SH with someone, attempted double suicide
Anyone wanna commit double sui-? /srs
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You sit down on your bathroom floor and get out your blade. "Come one it's been so long. 21 days." You think but it doesn't lessen the temptation. So you pull down your sweats and then cut. Since everyone found out about your arms they had been checking, the only thing that's has stopped you cutting is because you're kind of scared of cutting your thighs. But now you did. You keep cutting just back and forth, back and forth letting out all your struggles onto your thighs, you have big thighs so plenty of space, probably won't run out say time soon.
Suddenly a shadow is at the bathroom door and you quickly look up and see Sodo. "I'm sorry." You say and get slightly emotional but you're mainly just numb. "It's okay, I was planning on anyways." He says and then goes and sits down across from you and grabs a blade out of the packet you have. "What are you doing?" You ask him seeing his taking off his jumper and you gasp when you see his arms littered in scars. He then unwraps the blade and cuts himself and he doesn't even flinch. So then you keep going with your blade and you both sit there for a while just cutting.
You look up at him and see how his cuts are deeper than yours. "How do you go so deep?" You ask and he looks up at you. "I dunno, I just do." He says and shrugs and you look back down at your cuts then back to his and tear up. "Cut me." You say and he looks at you shocked. "Please cut me." You say and get emotional and he sighs. "Come here." He says and pats the floor in front of him and you quickly shuffle over to him. He pits his hand on your thigh and then takes his right hand to your left thigh and then cuts you, as deep as he did himself and it feels good, finally what you've craved after all these years. He does it again and then one more time and then stops. "Do it again." You ask and he shakes his head. "It's dangerous to do too many at once." He says and you sigh then you stand up, get a cloth and wash your legs and then pass it to him and he wipes his arm down, you pull your pants back up and he puts his hoodie back on and them you walk into your room and sit on your bed together.
"When did you start?" You ask and he sighs. "About April, when I found out Aether was leaving. I used to cut occasionally throughout the years from when I was about 13, what aboit you?" He asks, "I've been doing it since I was like 12, never really stopped but I had a 21 day streak until today." You say and he nods, both of your sounding emotionless. "Wanna hug?" He asks and you go and may down in his arms, then you both fall asleep as it is about 2 am.
The next morning you wake up before Sodo and sneak out of his arms back to the bathroom. You get your blade out and then start cutting again. Your know it's risqué he'll catch you again but you don't care. You cut as deep as you can and let out a loud gasp from the pain and the blood starts gushing onto the floor. "Shit shit shit shit shit!" You repeat and quickly get it to drip into the sink. "Y/n!" Sodo shouts when he runs into the bathroom and he quickly gets the cloth from yesterday and covers the cut putting pressure on it, then he picks you up and runs you to the medical room and you pass out along the way. When you wake up you are in a bed with your arm bandaged. "Fuck." You curse and then stand up and take out the needle giving you blood then you quietly and quickly and stealthily run back to your room.
When you get there Sodo is sat on your bed, looking at you like he expected you to run away. "Get out." You shout and then walk to your closet and rummage through for someone you put in there a while ago. "What are you doing?" He asks and hovers over you and you find the bag and then go into the bathroom and get your blades. "I'm not staying here anymore, now if you'll excuse me." You say in a monotone voice. "Let me join." He whispers, sounding like he's pleading you. "Please I can't do this anymore." He then breaks down crying and falls to the floor. You then sigh. You kneel down and hug him. "Fine but we have to be quick, and I don't have enough tablets for both of us so we'll have to cut." Yoi say and he nods. Then you both hold each others hands and sneak out of the ministry and then into the woods. You sit down and then get out your blades. You hand him one and then take off your bandages. "You understand what you're doing right?" You ask and he nods. "Itll probably be maybe 50 years until you see them all again, you might never see me again if I haven't been a good enough worshipper." You say and he nods. "I'll see you again." He says and then you hand him one and you try cut like you did that morning but can't. "Can you do it? Please?" Yoi ask him and he grabs your hand and you both take a deep breath and then je cut a strip down your arm cutting open a vein and then je does it a few more times. Then je does it to himself and yoi both gold hands while yoi loose consciousness.
Rain's pov
I had been looking for Sodo and y/nnfor a few hours and couldn't so I decided to go through the woods. I am worried because I jeard y/n had been in the medical suite but no one knows whats true or not. I searched the woods and then felt a strong whiff of blood so I followed it, there I found Sodo and y/n bleeding out holding hands against a tree. I rub over and get the ghouls to come to me and then grab my shirt and use my basic human saving skills to cover their wounds. The ghouls join me less than a minute later and then we carry them inside. Once they are in medical they are both rushed to surgery and then we sit and wait impatiently.
A few hours later the doctor comes out. "They are alive and breathing for themselves but they did loose a lot of blood and we don't know if they will wake up." The doctor says and my heart shatters. I let out a scream as I fall to the floor and I feel someone wrap their arms around me and pull me into their lap. "Can we see them?" Aether asks and the doctor says yes and we all go to their room and see them. They look like they're peacefully sleeping. That's all they are doing, sleeping.
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I might finish this I might not so its your choice what happens I'll try finish it but I'm tired rn
Also sorry for so many typos my hands are weak af atm so I can't move them very well idk why
