Is anyone who reads my story british? If so how tf do you deal with it all without professional help coz camhs are full of shit. Idk what the fuck was wrong with me last night and im not saying I feel better but I've never felt so bad before. I mean yesterday I just had a shit day and my mh gets worse every night I mean asks my friends like I just am like this almost every night but not this bad. And thank you to everyone trying to keep me here and also I can't call hotlines or 999 coz my mum can't know. She just can't know anything unless I'm dead, and tbh she's the main reason I wanna be dead coz I can't move out of this shitty place and I can't deal with this. Anyways I'm sorry for panicking you all... again and thank you to everyone who talked me out of it... again. I'm sorry for just everything and this won't be my last wattpad post unless something bad happens and I end up killing myself anyways 😃 I'd say the chances are 50/50 ngl maybe 49/51 (51 being not doing it) anyways I just woke up in really tired sorry to worry you all again
