Taste of Sanity (Seven Deadly Sinners #4)

Chapter 42

"WHAT'S THIS?" Kunot-noong tanong sa akin ni Eve nang saktong ibigay ko sa kan'ya ang sulat.

Naabutan ko siyang busy sa loob ng opisina niya, at himala pa nga ang bagay na 'yon dahil mas madalas siyang nakasunod sa akin. I can't still forget what happened the last time we met, where she shamelessly kissed me and claimed me to be someone who's hers alone.

"Resignation letter." Simpleng sagot ko habang walang ganang nakatitig sa kan'ya.

Napaayos siya ng upo habang masama ang tingin sa akin at nagtataka. She suddenly stopped what she's been doing and decided to focus her attention to me.

"You're not even here for a month and yet, you're already resigning? What kind of a joke is this, Polaris?" Seryosong tanong niya at binalik ang papel sa akin habang madilim ang mukha. "I will not accept this. What's the problem? Is the salary not enough? Are the employees not good? Does the office makes you uncomfortable? Tell me."

Umiling ako sa kan'ya dahil wala naman sa mga iyon ang problema ko. "Walang problema sa mga 'yon."

"Then, why?" Tumayo na siya sa swivel chair niya at akmang lalapitan ako pero umiwas ako dahil ayokong mahawakan niya.

"Miss Sullivan, your behaviors are inappropriate." Paglilinaw ko para alam niya naman ang ginagawa niya. I am confused, and I am overwhelmed by the emotions and confusions she's making me feel.

"Ayaw mo ba na nilalapitan kita?" Natigilan ako nang mabilis na mangilid ang luha sa mga mata niya. Her eyes were begging me to stay, and I would be lying if I tell myself that I didn't feel her pain. "What is it that you dislike? I'll change it. Don't leave, Polaris."

What on Earth... is this pain?

Hindi ako nakapagsalita nang makita ang matinding sakit sa mga mata niya. It's as though she's been suffering all her life and I'm responsible for it. Her eyes were pleading me, it is begging me to hold her again. It mirrors the pain I inflicted upon her.

"Kasal ka na at hindi magandang tignan na lumalapit ka sa iba." Wala sa sariling sambit ko.

"Kailan ka ba naging iba sa'kin?" Naguguluhang tanong niya. She's scared, hurt, and confused. "Polaris, why can't you believe me?"

"Eve." Madiin na pagtawag ko sa pangalan niyang gusto niyang itawag ko sa kan'ya. "Kinasal ka, walong taon na ang nakakalipas tulad ng sinabi mo. I was only nineteen at that time and I will never marry anyone at that age." Pangunguna ko dahil kilala ko ang sarili ko. "At saka walong taon... imposibleng kasama kita sa walong taon na 'yon."

"They took you away from me." She argued, looking desperate.

"No one told me about you when I woke up, and now, you will claim me to be your wife? Why would you even marry someone who's..." Napalunok ako dahil hindi ko maituloy ang sasabihin. "...who's just a mere human? With nothing to give you?" I explained because I cannot see the point, I cannot see the reason behind it.

Kung totoo ang sinabi niya, bakit walang nagsabi?

"Do I need a reason to love you? To choose you? Polaris, damn. Nothing to give me? I am not asking for one, honey." Hinapit niya ako sa baywang kaya tinulak ko siya, pero hindi niya man lang ako binitawan. "We are on the same place, Polaris. Stop telling me that you didn't give me anything, when you gave me something that is priceless. Something more worthy than those materials."

A tear unknowingly escaped my eye as my body started to recognize her warm touch. Her words reached my heart and her sincerity... I can feel it well. I don't know where should I believe. Nalilito ako.