Tennessee Whiskey AU

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

                                      "I want you. I raced through soundcheck to meet you."

I woke up this morning to a text from Jay saying how much he wished he could have woken up with me. I can't say I didn't feel the same. It was a pretty good way to wake up. I mean not as good as I could imagine actually waking up with him, seen as how he was up by the time I woke up yesterday. After sleeping so well in his arms the night before I was rewarded with the worst night's sleep, I've had in ages last night. It was as if all the nightmares had been held back by the safety of his presence and then everything hit me. The nightmares don't come as often as they used to anymore but when you get dragged out of bed just that one time you don't tend to sleep as soundly as you used to. So, even on nights where I don't get a visit from the nightmare fairy, the slightest noise, any movement and I'm wide awake again. I remember this one brilliant idea I had of thinking that having the dog in the room with me at night might help to me feel safer. It sort of worked except she's a husky, so not a small dog and she's also absolutely fruit looped, like completely off her rocker. I always used to wonder why she seemed to sleep most of the day and after spending five nights with her in my bedroom with me I figured it out. It's because during the night all she does is run round the room like a prize fool. Like that fucking lunatic is all over the place. Needless to say, a peaceful night's rest was not found and now the dog sleeps anywhere but near me.

Anyway,after a quick shower, rocking a kick ass outfit of my favourite white fittedtop and jeans, a light dusting of make-up I now find myself at the venue a fullthirty minutes ahead of time. I would also like to add despite all those goodthings, the lack of sleep is making me feel slightly like shit and I'm notprepared for the million questions I'm sure are coming my way. I'm sure by nowthey are all fully aware of who I spent the day with yesterday and I could tellthem nothing happened till I'm blue in the face, but I have doubts any of themwill believe me on this one. So, much for having a day of peace and relaxation to rejuvenate. I mean I did at the time. I felt wonderful for pretty much all of yesterday. But none of that means anything when you only managed to get any sort of sleep between the hours of 5.am and 7.30am.

It doesn't take too long for everyone to start filtering in. Rob's the first to drop down next to me. I shoot him a look of disgust due to the fact he's knocking my hand and now I've drawn a line across the page I was writing.

"What the hell is wrong with you on this fine morning?" I ask the giant dork. He just raises his eyebrows at me suggestively at me. I can't help but laugh at him, he's just that person. No matter how bad you're feeling he just makes you feel happy. He's my little ray of sunshine. I know there was a few of the guys that had hoped I would be the one to tame his wild boy ways. It was never like that between us. Even if I had been inclined, I never got the sense he looked at me as anything but his little sister, must protect and all that. It's weird but after Erin he probably knows the most that happened between me and David. Even my own brother doesn't know as much as Rob does. I think that's because I care what my brother thinks. I would hate for him to look at me with pity. Rob never did that. We do dance well together though and have taught a couple of classes together and even competed a time of two. I think that might be where some may have gotten the idea of us being together from. "you're an idiot. and I wouldn't take you up on whatever that was for if you paid me. It amazes me how you ever get laid. I mean your cute and all but then you open your mouth and spoil it all."

"Rude, cute is what you call puppies and kittens. I think you will find I'm all man baby." See he's just funny. "And no, I wasn't. that wasn't what. I wouldn't do that." He stumbles over himself.

"Good job for us it's not you that has to sing solo tonight. You can't manage full sentences at the moment." Haley says announcing her presence. "Hey gorgeous, how was your day off. I hear you may have had some company in the form of an incredibly hot guy." She says turning her attention to me.