Tennessee Whiskey AU

CHAPTER THIRTY THREE

"She ain't living for a diamond ring, just living like the rock 'n' roll song she sings out loud."

Jensen's POV

Her eyes have gone wide with shock. She opens and closes a few times before she speaks. "Great sex? I don't know. Take it back. What you've just said. You can't say that. You can't say shit like that, especially after I show you the crazy. That's not. Why? You can't be falling for me. People don't. How on fucking Earth would that work? Take it back. That whole thing. Take it back. Fuck is it too early for whiskey?" Shit she's full on lost it now. I have to smile at her, I love that fact I affect her this much.

"Why are you smiling? That's it isn't it? You're just as crazy as me. Ok, that's ok. Although maybe one person in a relationship should be stable. You know balance and stuff. Not that I'm saying we are in a relationship. As long as you aren't serial killer lever crazy. Maybe that's the real reason women don't make it to breakfast. How many heads do you have in your freezer?" During her rant she's been pacing the kitchen next to me but has now moved over to the freezer, apparently looking heads. Me, I'm full-on laughing now. Like nearly fell off the chair laughing at her. I've had ex-girlfriends who have broken up with me because and I quote 'I could never love anyone but myself' I tell this one I'm falling, only falling mind you and she wants me to take it back and thinks I have the severed heads of the former mentioned ex-girlfriends in the freezer. How the fuck am I not supposed to fall in love with her?

"Darlin' come her." She squeaks a little as I grab her hands and pull her to sit back down. "You good?" She worries her lip between her teeth, and I really wish I knew what was going on in her head right now. "Just you and me, talk to me."

"This wasn't supposed to happen. This was supposed to be a one-time thing."

"Darlin' I think we left a one-time thing about six times ago." I see her start to smile at that and decide to keep going. I would rather see her laughing than whatever she's feeling at the moment. "Maybe as you and Erin keep going on about my magical cock, have you ever thought it's you who has a magical pussy?" She stares at me for a minute, and I start to panic that I've read her wrong. Then she makes me jump a little by laughing. She moves off her chair to stand in between my legs and wraps her arms around my neck.

"Never thought of that. My superpower is to tame even the wildest of playboys." I kiss her neck. I love the feel of this woman's body on my lips. "I may have to do market research, you know tally the numbers."

"Like fuck you will darlin'" I growl as I tickle her, and she runs away. As I give chase, I notice she knows exactly what she is doing because we find ourselves back on my bed.

I wrap her up in my arms and kiss her. I want her to feel all the things in my head and heart at the moment.

"You meant to maybe have that talk now?" She says and it comes out a little breathless.

"The one where I'm falling for you or the one about what happens between us next?"

"Yeah, that one." She says as she turns over in my arms to lie on my chest.

"I guess they sort of are the same the same thing aren't they."

"Pretty much"

"I want this to carry one," I say taking a deep breath. I don't want to push her and have her freak out on me again, but I don't want to give her the chance to push me away either.

"How in the hell would that work Jay? I have my life I can't be here, and you have yours here."

"I don't need to be here," I state.

"So, you're going to move to Texas. We've known each other for a handful of days. And people think I'm crazy!" Ok, I may have pushed her too far with that one.

"Not yet but maybe down the line. How about for now we just see how things go?"

"How would we even see each other? I have no idea how many miles would be between us, but I do know it's like a three-hour flight."

"So what!" I'm trying to keep calm, but she seems so against this and it's starting to piss me off. I can see how good this could be and no matter what she thinks I don't think I can see her leave tomorrow and never see her again. The thought of it alone makes me feel a little sick.

I tilt her face up a little so I can look into her eyes while I say the next part. "We can take this as far or as fast as you feel comfortable with, but this isn't over. Nowhere near. Understand?"

"I don't know what to say. This week has been wonderful. For so many reasons." She smiles at me and her whole face lights up. "Mostly due to you, I must say. But this feels a lot like putting my heart on the line again. I've only just learnt how to put my body back out there. I don't know if that's just too much to ask Jay."

"Look, just cause I'm falling for you doesn't mean there's any pressure for you to feel the same or even tell me how your feeling. I'm glad you trust me as much as you have. I just need you to trust me a little more. You don't have to put anything on the line." I move lower in the bed, so we are nearly face to face. "If anyone's heart is on the line it's mine. I'm invested in this, in us. I can't make you want to stick this out. All I can do is ask for a chance to show you." She goes still for a beat and then slowly nods and I feel relief flood my system. I'm in awe, I can say with all certainty no woman has ever put so much in my hands and trusted me not to break it. The guys were wrong. I can fuck her. I just can't fuck this up!

"We can call and text as much as we can. I'll fly out to you. See if this chemistry and feeling between us is there after this week. We could meet up after this and it's not the same. There could be nothing there and this moment is all we have." I'm not seeing that one happening, but you never know. I take her hand in mine and interlock our fingers.

"I'm not convinced of that one, but I will go with your logic." I smile at her statement.

"You think there might be a chance you will still want me?" I nuzzle into her neck as I wait for her answer.

"We will have to wait and see won't we. Neither of us knows what could happen. I could miss you and be completely gone for you and you could be like yeah actually I'm ok. I do have one request though if you want to try this, but it's a big one."

"Hit me with it darlin'"

"Can we keep this to ourselves?"

"Like today or the future? Because you've mentioned Erin so guessing she knows why you came here and what you came here for." That one earned me a roll of her eyes. "Isn't she going to ask questions about what happened. Plus, my friends know I was spending today with you." I can tell by the look on her face her hadn't about that one. We both go quiet for a second, thinking if there is a way we could salvage it. "How about we tell them the truth about today and that is was great but with distance and stuff it's better if it was just a one day thing and go back to just being friends."

"Thatsounds good. It might actually take some of the pressure off. They've been onat me for a while about getting back out there and even more so since I met youfor some reason." She chuckles like it isn't obvious to all our friends thatthere is  something more here. I know it was to mine. "Maybe a little bit of information passed their way and keep the rest to ourselves is the perfect way to go. I know you probably don't get why I need to do it this way but thank you for trying to."

"Whatever you need darlin', I'm just happy you will take a chance us."

"If I say I need more convincing, would you kiss me again?" she asks as she looks at me. I'm blown away by what I see in her eyes. I see what I think is something of what she feels for me. But maybe I'm just hoping she's falling for me too!