Tennessee Whiskey AU

CHAPTER THIRTY-SIX

"I think I'm lost without you, I just feel crushed without you."

Jensen's POV

It's been four hours since she left. I drove back home, cleaned up after our day together. I can't believe it was only two night and one day. It feels like a long time but also went stupidly quickly. Now I don't know what to do with myself. I've tried working out, I've watched tv. I've completely cleaned my apartment. All except changing my bed. My futile attempt at keeping her scent on my pillow as long as I can.

Nothing takes my mind off her. I don't know what to do. She should be home by now, but she hasn't text me. As I supposed to message her first? Maybe she's waiting to hear off me. Ok so I message her first. I did say I would make the effort to prove myself. Now the question is what the hell do I say? I need to play it cool, but at the same time I want her to know I am missing her.

Just as I'm sat there working myself into a state there's a knock at the door. For a split second my hopes rise that she decided to stay. Moving to answer it I shake the stupid idea from my brain. Behind the door I find Christian, Jason and Steve. Each holding a case of beers and a tray of something.

"What did you just kick my door?" I ask.

"Well my hands are full," Christian winks and moves past me even though I don't remember inviting them in.

"So what do I owe this pleasure?" I ask as they lay food out and put the beers in the fridge.

"Don't ask me I was just told the time and the place, so here I am," Steve says shrugging.

"We figured you might be at a loss today, might want some company," Jase answers.

"Why would you think that?" I know exactly why they think that. Like I haven't just spent the past few hours at a complete loss. But there is no way I will admit that to them.

"Cause a certain lady has left you high and dry today," Christian smirks as he pushes past me towards the sofa. Handing out beers as he goes.

As we take a seat Steve looks around confused. "Bullshit, in all the years I've known him I don't think I've ever seen him caught up over a woman." The other two laugh like it's the funniest thing they have ever heard. This is why I didn't want Steve to meet Scar. He knows me better than anyone and five minutes with her and he would have seen what I see. "I mean he's not a bad boyfriend he just doesn't get attached. Like he's always got one foot out the door." It sounds so horrible when he says it like that but he's not wrong. It just makes it clearer to me how much work I have to do to prove I'm worth it for her.

"Yeah, normally I would agree with you on that one. That was until his perfect woman landed in his lap." Jase says rather smugly.

"Wow, now I really have to hear about this one." Steve leans forward now far more interested than I would like him to be.

"No one, honestly. Definitely, no one any of us are likely to see again." I snap a little harshly. This isn't a subject I want to discuss. I had hoped they had turned up to take my mind off things.

"I would have liked to have seen her at least once," Steve sulks.

"We can always google them," Chris adds helpfully, dick. "Or I may have taken a few pictures of them together the other night."

"Oh, fuck off. He really doesn't need to see any of those." I shout.

"Oh, now I really think I do," Steve says now laughing his arse off the utter prick. I'm so glad they are all enjoying this. I just sit there and groan as Chris brings up pictures on his phone and passes it to Steve. I'm not gonna lie I would really like to see them too. For some reason it never occurred to me to take any pictures of us together, something I now regret.