Tennessee Whiskey AU

CHAPTER FIFTY EIGHT

"Makin' my connection as I enter the room, Everybody's chillin' as I set up the groove, Pumpin' up the volume with this brand new beat."

                                            Scarlett's POV

The pool party is in full swing. It would have been nice to steel five more minutes with Jay before everyone arrived. But I'm so glad Erin finally opened up a little bit about what's been going on with her. I swear I oughtta smack Rob upside his head. However, I promised Jay I would play nice after he told Rob he could talk to me and hear him out. I need to stay out of the middle of it Erin had said, so I've said my piece to him and  will leave it at that. They will either figure it out or I will be there to pick the pieces up when it all falls apart, for both of them.

Jay catches my eye. He looks so relaxed and comfortable. He looks like he fits into this world. Fits into my world. Like he's always been there or he was just simply meant to be in it.

The whole girlfriend experience while we were out was nice. I mean when we got back here, that experience was incredible, unbelievable, mind blowing and out of this world. All combined. Sex with him is always something else, but that was even more. Freer somehow.

He smiles at me before turning back to his conversation with some of the guys. Part of me would love to know what they are talking about.

"Why are you sitting here all on your own, looking like you have the weight of the world on your mind?" Louisa asks as she sits next to me and passes me a drink, breaking my Jensen thought train before it went to the fun stuff.

"Not necessarily on my own as such. Just knackered and dropped in the first seat I could find." I answered honestly. Can't say I had really thought about it. "And I was just thinking about a few things. Nothing bad I promise."

"No, probably not. I'm guessing it may have something to do with a certain someone here for the weekend." She says with a smile.

"Not gonna lie I think that man has pretty much consumed my thoughts since the day I met him."

"I can understand why. I mean he looks good in swim shorts." She jokes.

"Let's be honest he looks dam good in most things and fucking incredible out of them too."

"Dam girl. Those are words I never thought I would  hear from you. I was starting to worry that you had given up on men altogether."

"I sort have had. Turns out it just took a God like man to reset all my happy thoughts." I can't help but laugh. The man is perfection both inside and out. I couldn't have asked for anyone better. The question is what I do now.

Watching him laugh and joke with my brother, my friends and his friends feels too good. I want to be able to be honest with him about how I feel, but it scares the ever living shit out of me. To be brave enough to put myself out there, to trust enough in how he says he feels, faith that he won't hurt me. I'm not sure how to cope with all the mix of emotions running through me.

"Can I ask you something?" I figure I might as well talk to Louisa, see what she thinks I should do.

"You can ask me anything. I will try to answer the best I can, but I'm like you and not good with the mushy stuff the same as you aren't. This is why we all go to Haley or Erin.

"I think Erin has enough on her mind at the moment." 

"Has she?" She looks over at Erin confused. "Why? What's up?"