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Ch. 24: Magpie

Ch. 24: Magpie

Senya's point of view

Current Date: The 530th day since the in-game imprisonment.

FEW DAYS had already gone by from that raid on our base who killed 90% lives of the whole ReaperKiller squadron.

The attack was still fresh from our minds and such loss couldn't be forgotten that easily, especially thinking of how helpless they died from that moment. It's still unbearable to imagine.

For now. We temporarily resides in a hidden part of the forest away from the base. Trying to survive with our numbers and the few food supplies we can come up with day by day while silently mourning for the others.

And I am one of them.

Now that Nancy's gone. Who will ever look after my safety if I'll go too far again? Who will defy my decisions despite how the others agrees on me everytime? Now that she's not here anymore, who will I turn to for a small talk everytime I loses myself. What voice should I listen to if ever I'll turn insane and take my own life of all these pressures on me.

Everyone knew me as strong and a dependable captain, but little did they know how I badly wishes not to be like this in the first place. Protecting over everybody's lives is to tough for an imperfect man like me to carry at all.

And now that it came to this. I finally realized the mistakes of being me, and how unlucky of them to be me as their captain. I hated myself more than anyone out there. I thought I could save them till the last day of this game but my strength wasn't even enough to do so. In the end. I failed them all. I failed as their captain.

"Captain. May I talk with you for a second?" The small tent door swayed open, and saw Astro's face their.

Bumangon ako sa damuhan kong higaan at naupo roon. Tumingin ako sa kanya. "What's the matter? Something wrong with the supplies?" i motioned a flat surface rock infront.

Naupo si Astro roon at taimtim na ako'y tinitigan nang magkasaklop nitong palad. "Did the voice talk to you yet?"

I sighed shaking my head. "No. I bet she'll never even talk to me again."

"But it's almost a week already since you lost contact with her. Simula no'ng makaalis tayo sa base at makarating sa ligtas na lugar na ito, hindi nyo na sya nabalitaan. I have to say this but, she saved us that day, right? That's why we all survived until now with our remaining people with us here."

I went silent for a moment. "That's true."

He sighed to my answer and stood up. "I'll return to my post now. And before I forget, Wolf8 and Greenrebel's off to the woods now. We'll be lacking defense here if I'm going there too so maybe. You can lend them a hand this time too? Captain?"

Tulala ako sa kawalan na nakikinig. "Got it."

Umalis si Astro na hindi na muling nagsalita pa at muli na namang tumahimik ang paligid ko. A few seconds passed, naisip kong kunin ang pistol sa aking holster at tahimik na pinagmasdan ito ng walang kabuhay-buhay kong mga mata.

Nancy's face won't go away from my head. Especially that severed body of her, along with those bloods all over her on the ground. That image is hunting my conscience. I almost felt the explosion in me myself just by looking back to that scenario and no matter how many times I tend to erase it to have a clear head, it's freaking hard to do than said. It's hurting me non-stop.

I closed my eyes and started raising the gun, until I pointed it to my temple. Nice and still.

They'll probably hear the gunshot and rush over but maybe this'll be the best thing to do right now. I already lost hope, not kidding. I failed my comrades. I failed my love to protect her till the very end. I knew this day will eventually come but I imagined it to be me who'll disappear. Not her.