DNS

Part 7 - what now?

Lilly POV -

I wake up and I feel awful for how I snapped at Charles last night. As much as he was acting a little strange, I shouldn't have been so cold with him.

We both hate leaving a situation unresolved and it's not nice going to sleep on bad terms, I needed to talk to him now.

I hear a pained grunt and stretch from the next room which must be him getting up from the sofa, it really was more of a show piece than for comfort - it felt like a rock.

I jump out of bed and quickly run into the main room, launching myself towards him i dive onto the sofa, wrapping up myself up in the duvet cover with him. "I'm so sorry" we both say at the same time, which quickly turns to a mutual little smile.

He holds me so tight, even his morning breath isn't gross, why is this man so perfect? I look into his eyes, his beautiful green eyes, I feel his arms flex around me and my hand on his chest and I have to quickly gather myself.. and my thoughts. What is going on?

Something just happened which made me completely question myself. In that moment I suddenly wanted him. My whole body tingled and I had to clench my legs together and gather my breath as I felt him push up against me.

In that moment I thought back, laying in silence for what felt like en eternity, as I think about how I'd always longed for Charles to want me as more than a friend. I think deep down i'd always wanted him, but I could never admit it and I didn't want to firstly - be rejected by him. Or secondly - ruin our friendship.

He was my safe place, I'd prefer to have his friendship than embarrass myself by telling him how much I loved him when I knew he didn't feel the same way. He was rarely ever not in a relationship, so he can't feel the same way. Can he?

But in this moment I felt so close to him, in a way I hadn't felt before, a way that didn't feel like friends. His hand grazes my back pulling me closer to him while he gives me a light kiss on the forehead.

"je suis content que tu sois ici avec moi bébé."

There's just nowhere I'd rather be.

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