A Player Felt Love (A Justin Bieber Fanfiction)

Chapter 64: Moving on, letting go.

(Femke's P.O.V)

"So, you got everything packed?" Aunt Melissa asked as I pushed my last hand-carry on the backseat of the car.

"Definitely." I smiled at her, closing the door and rubbing my hands against each other to wipe the dust off of them. Everything I needed had been packed and loaded in the car. I'm sure I got it all done with the hand carries too. Now all that was needed was determination, which I had 99%. But leaving everything, everyone I had spent so much time with was so frightening.

It had three months since I ended things with Justin. Three months till I last saw or heard of him. I missed him; I missed his presence, his jokes, his talks, his smile, his scent, his everything. And now, going away for good, I don't know when I'll return, it might even take years. I won't meet him or anyone else for so many years till I accomplish everything in Mom's To-Do Before To-Die Diary, it had all her dreams, her goals, what she wanted to do. They were general, small yet big things. Like exploring the world, drinking coffee in a local café in Italy, or roam in the streets of Paris, explore France, go and explore major parts of Africa, visit the less populated as well as more populated areas of Asia, take pictures with Pandas in China, etc.

I always remembered Mom talking about how much she loved exploring and finding more about the world, how small details meant so much to her and how badly she wanted to go to different countries and in each country, do tiny yet memorable things that she can have a laugh about later on. I knew how much this meant to her, I knew how much she wanted this and how happy it would make her. And since she couldn't do it, she definitely wanted me to. I haven't heard anything as such that she asked me to do it, but I know my mom, I know she'd want me to do this for her. And I have my own happiness in this too, in her happiness. So I have to take the chance.

As much as it hurts leaving everyone and not knowing if I'd ever see them again, I yet knew I had to. No matter how much it pained me to.

"So the time is finally here. My baby girl is- is going to be independent, is growing up. I'm so proud of what you're about to do." Aunt Melissa smiled. "And I always have your back. Don't worry about a thing, we have a whole backup so if you need anything, give Markus a call and it'll be okay."

"Will do." I smiled, hugging her. Markus was her friend who was also good with this international dealing, so he pretty much got everything under control. "I'll miss you so much. Thank you for everything." I hugged her tightly.

"I love you." She whispered, her voice cracking off at the end as she pressed her hand on my back.

"Aunt?" I broke the hug to see she was crying. "Aunt, no. Oh God, please no." I hugged her again, this time letting her rest her head on my shoulder. "Stop crying! Please, how can you expect me go happily when you're crying?"

"Yeah yeah," she sniffled, wiping away her tears as she broke the hug. "I'll be okay."

"Oh sure," I said sarcastically before holding her face in my hands.

"I just- I mean I don't know. We barely spent some quality time together. First I left for Washington and then the whole hospital deal with Justin's mother and then you fighting Leukemia. Everything just happened so fast and even though we were together, so close yet we were barely together and I just-"

"-missed me." I ended it for her as she sighed and nodded, wiping the tears that laid on the brim of her eyes.

"Yes." She sighed.

"I missed you too. And you're the one I'll miss the most when I'll be gone, and that when I'll return very soon, you and I will have loads of things to catch up about. We'll be in contact twenty four-seven, why are you even worried about that?" I asked as she, once again, fell in my embrace and we shared one last emotional hug before we got interrupted.