A Player Felt Love (A Justin Bieber Fanfiction)

Chapter 27: Problems Collide

(Femke’s P.O.V)

“I am so sorry” he sobbed, looking down as I sighed. I knew where this was going, and that was what I was avoiding the most.

“Justin, I-”

“I know you’re gonna say ‘it’s alright’ and just- just forgive me like that. But no, Femke! This is not how it’s supposed to go! You’re supposed to get mad at me and just- just beat the crap out of me!” he exclaimed, stepping closer to me as I looked away, rolling my eyes. He did not get the hint.

“Well, I don’t want to!” I defended myself.

“Well, you should! I know you hate me, of course you’d hate me for what I did! But you should express it, Femke! I have this guilt in me and I want it to go!”

“Gosh, Justin! You’re only thinking about yourself! I don’t want to reminisce on the past! I don’t want to remind myself of those horrifying and I don’t wanna hurt myself anymore! Yes, I hated you. But not anymore because I’m trying to forget the past and move on. I am trying to just- just be the normal teenage Femke I used to be and you need to understand that! But, why are you even upset on this? That ‘guilt’ should be gone by now since I forgave you”

“No, it didn’t and it shouldn’t. I want to know that what I did was wrong and I want to make it up to you!” he said, running his hands through his hair as I balled my hands in fists. Trying to control the anger. Right the time when I thought it was all over, he pulled this shit up. I shouldn’t have even come here.

“That’s it. I’m leaving” I said, turning around and walking out of the room.

“No! Wait!” he yelled, running up to me and blocking my way as I came to the staircase.

“Justin, get out of my way!” I yelled, pushing him aside but he stayed firm. “Why don’t you just get the hint and move? Are you crazy? I forgive you, now get the hell out!” I added.

“Femke, I know you hate-”

“For God’s sake, Justin Drew Bieber, GET OVER IT!” I finally yelled at the top of my lungs, making his grip on the handles of the staircase loosen as I backed away a bit. Staring into his eyes with disgust as I lost control and started yelling. “Quit being so stubborn! So immature! Yes, I hated you and you know what? I still do! But when I’m trying to not hate you, why are you making me do so?” I tucked my hair behind my ears and let out a few sobs that I had been holding in for so long.

“You hurt me. You used me. You made me feel so unwanted. But I know that, that’s exactly what you wanted to do. And you did it. Now, what else do you want from me?” I wiped away a few tears and continued. “Let me refresh your memory, Justin. It was me who was with you through it all. It was me who stayed with you and loved you even though you gave me every reason not to. It was me who pulled up after everyone’s bullshit. Who went through an enormous amount of hate just to be with you. Who was there when everyone else left. Who stood by you even after your careless acts and stupid fights. No matter how many times you broke me, I still loved you enough to stay after all that. And I was stupid” I ended, looking down as I wiped the tears that fell one after another.

He stayed there, still. I could tell by the look on his face, he felt the pain. He realized what he did was not as small as he early thought it was.

“And- and I don’t hate you, Justin. I don’t” I said, shaking my head as our gaze stayed connected. “I just hate the fact that I gave you enough control over me and power to hurt me. And that’s exactly what you did” I ended with a sob, shaking my head as I ran past him, shoving him aside as I ran downstairs and out of the house. Right when I barged out and ran a few meters away, I stopped when I was out of breath.