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twenty-five

saylor

it's now the beginning of may. since alex's birthday, the band has been working on our debut album. we've gotten around sixty-percent of it done now, but we're trying hard to finish it soon. right now, the band is in los angeles, california for an interview. it's on some radio station or something. we're also set to perform one of our songs, as well as a cover.

since the night that arlo followed me to my apartment, i've still been staying with alex. i've spent a few nights at jessie's and at miguel's as well. me and alex are still trying to think of a way for me to go back to my apartment whenever i want and feel safe while doing so.

i looked to alex as we got ready to sing our cover. we both had one of our guitars, miguel had his bass, and jessie had her drums. we were given the go ahead, and alex nodded. we started.

"take me to church. i'll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies," alex started to sing, while at the same time, i sang "got me looking so crazy right now. your love's got me looking so crazy right now."

we sang a few more lines like that before i started to sing alone. "i look and stare so deep in your eyes. i touch on you more and more every time. when you leave, i'm begging you not to go; call your name two, three times in a row."

alex started to sing with me again. "such a funny thing for me to try to explain," they looked over at me and held eye contact the whole time. "how i'm feeling, and my pride is the one to blame. yeah, 'cause i know i don't understand, just how your love can do what no one else can."

we continued to sing. alex couldn't seem to take their eyes off of mine, and it was admittedly making me a bit nervous and flustered.

"it's the way that you knew what i thought i knew. it's the beat that my heart skips when i'm with you," a small smile tugged at their lips, and they shook their head as they finally broke eye contact.

•

a handful of hours later, the four of us are at a beach. well... the five of us; the fifth person is billie. i'm not even sure what beach it is; billie had said that she comes here often though, because the paps don't bother her here.

my brows furrowed a bit as i watched alex quickly make their way towards the water in a pair of black swim trunks. i thought back to last year, to our trip to the hamptons. they had insisted and told me several times that they "don't swim." i tilted my head as i looked at them and watched as their shirtless body waded further and further into the water.

oh.

oh.

poor baby.

i'm so glad that they're comfortable now. it makes me so happy.

"quit staring," miguel teased as he playfully shoved my shoulder.

"uh, my girlfriend is very hot and sexy; why wouldn't i stare?" i remarked.

his face scrunched. "i don't know why, but hearing alex being called sexy is off-putting," he shuddered. i lightly punched his shoulder with an eye roll before i grabbed his hand to pull him towards the water.

i glanced over towards jessie and billie. billie's back was to me as she had her arms wrapped around jessie's neck. even with billie slightly blocking jj's face, i could see how widely she was smiling. i pouted as i watched billie touch her forehead to jessie's.

they're so cute together. i'm so happy for them.

i talked and swam around with miguel for a bit. we talked about songs that we've been working on, shows we've been watching, and any other thing that came to mind. at some point, alex swam over to us.

"come swim with me, darling," alex pleaded softly.

"i don't wanna," i teased lightly.

their brows knitted together, and they crossed their arms over their chest. "why don't you love me?!" they huffed. "you're so fake."

i couldn't help but giggle at that. miguel snickered to himself as well before saying that he was done swimming for now.

"you're so dramatic, baby," i told alex as i swam towards them.

i tried to swim into their arms, but they were still crossed, and they weren't budging. "nah, you don't love me for real."

"yes, i do," i insisted as i peeled their arms away from their chest. "i love you so much."

their eyes narrowed slightly as i wrapped my arms around their neck. "you don't," they continued to claim, though they were now speaking in a low mumble.

"i do," i started to place slow kisses across their face. i held back a smile as i felt them physically start to melt.

i lifted my legs, and i wrapped them around their waist. one of my hands drifted down to alex's chest, where i could feel their heartbeat start to quicken. i smirked against their cheek.

"are you nervous, baby?" i teased quietly.

"no..." they answered stubbornly.

"no?" i repeated as i trailed my kisses down to their neck. i could still feel their heart thumping against their chest. "i think otherwise."

i could feel their throat move against my lips as they swallowed. they were silent for a few moments. "saylor," they let out quietly, their voice shaky and desperate.

jesus fucking christ.

"yes?" i replied smoothly as my hand slowly trailed across their chest.

their hands lifted to hold my face between them. "you're such a fucking brat," they muttered before they pressed their lips to mine.

"you love it," i couldn't help but to grin into the kiss.

"you wish," they replied.

•

a while later, i'm sitting on the beach with billie and miguel, though miguel is napping peacefully under an umbrella. me and billie are sitting in chairs beside each other as we watched alex and jessie damn near drown each other.

"so, how are you and alex handling your relationship and the public eye?" she asked as she turned to face me.

my eyes widened a bit at the question. "uh, i think we're handling it okay. i mean, we're trying our best to keep it private and kinda away from the public eye, as best as we can. we haven't outright confirmed our relationship or anything, so people are still kinda trying to figure out if we're together or not."

"good luck," she told me genuinely with a slight shake of her head. "i've tried to do the same with past relationships, but it's like they always, somehow, find out about it."

i pursed my lips at that, and i glanced over at alex again. they were laughing as they pushed their wet hair out of their face and flipped jessie off. "it's pretty invasive, huh?" i questioned softly.

"it most definitely is," she agreed with a nod.

"what about your relationship with jessie? whatever it is that you two have," i questioned.

"i mean, i'm in no rush for everyone to know about it, but i don't think i'd be upset if they did find out," she explained. "though, since it's my first relationship with a woman, i know the internet is going to have a field day with that," she rolled her eyes.

"i can imagine so," my face scrunched.

we continued to talk for a while. eventually, jessie and alex walked over towards us. alex laid down on top of me, while jessie did the same to billie. me and billie looked over at each other, and we giggled to ourselves.

•

a/n ayooo

thoughts?

any predictions or things you wanna see??

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