pluto ; jungjoo

1.

jooyeon had a perfect life as a kid and then as a teen. that was all until his mother passed away. 

all the time, his mother was the most important figure in his life. he loved and admired her the most. looked up to her the most. she was not only a gorgeous young woman, but also a very kind and nice one. knew how to talk to people, how to approach them, how to comfort. you would have often hear from a baby jooyeon, "i want to be like you when i grow up." she always was the most important figure in his life and he wanted to keep her by his side all the time. 

whenever he had a problem, he would face her, he listened and believed her the most. sure, he had friends but obviously no one could ever replace her, even after millions of years. 

as a kid, jooyeon asked his mother a question, what would happen after people go to sleep and never wake up. that was how he addressed death. because he didn't want for it to ever come, not when it was his mother. and she always told him people had different views on that and he was too young to know that. 

maybe it was because he forgot it, or maybe because he didn't want to think about it at all, jooyeon completely stopped even mentioning death, as if he didn't care at all.  but deep down he always did care. and it always bothered him. 

and it was the last second when he realized, he would never know what happened to people when they closed their eyes and never opened them again, because seemingly the only person to have answer to that ⸺ jooyeon believed it was so ⸺ his mother, was no longer there with him. 

it took jooyeon a lot of sleepless nights and tears, to accept it, and start moving on. he made up his own theory as a kid back then, he would want to believe even till this day. 

maybe, people who left earth, were becoming stars in the sky and then starting to protect someone from there so that the person on the earth would have a long, long and happy life. 

the theory seemed interesting, as jooyeon never stopped believing the fact that there was a star up there in the sky, protecting him. but he didn't know what to think about his own star. was it also, a person who died and started protecting him? or was he not even a person in the first place. that didn't matter much at that point. 

ever since he was so young he would spend so much time staring up at the dark starry sky, looking especially at that one star, who was always shining much brighter than any other up there. whenever he struggled and didn't want to worry his mother, he would tell his star about it. 

"i don't know what to do, i'm lost, please tell me what should i do."