Friends with passion *Greys anatomy*

𝟰𝟲. 𝗚𝗿𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗲

Esme sat in the nursery. All that she felt was numb. Her baby was gone and it had been weeks and she didn't know how to face it. All that she knew was it was all getting to her and she had no idea how to accept her grief.

Esme looked to see Jackson as he walked in and smiled as she sat on the rocking chair. Jackson know how he was trying to stay strong for her but he also knew how he had lost a child

"How are you doing" he asked as she looked to him with tears in her eyes

"I feel like a piece of me died with me. I feel as if I'll never Be me again. I feel as if I'll never be happy again and I feel like I can't breathe and I don't know how to deal with it. There is all this grief and i don't know if I can survive it" she said as she sobbed

He pulled her to him so that he sat on the chair as he held her in his arms. She had her head buried into his chest as he ran his hand through her hair

"I've got to. I know that this torture but I know that you carried him and I can't feel the way that you do" he said as she wiped the tears from her eyes

"We need to plan her a funeral" Esme said as he nodded

"We'll do it. Together when your ready" he said as she wiped away the tears and looked to him

"I don't think I'll ever be ready. I mean how do you bury your child and move on as if it is nothing" she said as he nodded

"I find one but I've got you no matter what" he said as she smiled as she kissed him

"Don't leave me"

"I'm going no where"

•••
Esme stood in front of the mirror as she smoothed down her black dress. She sighed to herself as she looked to see Jackson as he walked in through the mirror. He walked over to her and wrapped his arm around her and smiled as he held her close

"How are you doing?" He asked

"Like we're about to head to our son's funeral.  How are you sing? You're my husband and you're grieving too. I know that it isn't easy for you" she said as he sighed

"I'm grieving our sins. My heart physically hurts and today we have to go and bury our son but I know I have to stay strong or I'll crumble" he said as Esme nodded

"Promise me something" Esme said as she pinned her blonde back as Jackson looked to her

"Anything"

"If you crumble. Crumble in my arms and I'll pick you up" she said as he kissed her forehead

"Only if you do the same. I know this pain is so much we can't describe it but we will find a way to survive and move on" Jackson said as Esme smiled

"I promise"

•••
Esme got to the church and stood with Jackson. She looked to the hearse and she saw the small coffin that lay inside knowing it was her son's body. She walked over and placed her hand on the glass of the hearse. She didn't know how she was going to get through but she was going to try

"It's okay baby. Mommy is here and you're going to be okay. You're going to rest now baby" she said as she heard someone walk over and turned as she saw Chloe.