I walk up the empty stairs of my apartment to stop by Miss Terry's.
I looked at the beautiful indoor plant I always stop by to admire but today it felt like it was nothing that special to stop and watch.
I sighed and turned toward my flat.
I open the lock and walk inside the dark room.
When I switched on the lights in my living room I saw the open suitcase I was packing yesterday.
"The Christmas Trip"
I gasped shutting my eyes.
I dump my body in the corner of the sofa.
I close my eyes to think and Carter's face came flashing in my mind and I sat up on the sofa with a twisting sensation in my stomach.
Is this for real?
Why is it not striking me like a metal ball? Why can't I jump up and down thinking of Carter, thinking that I finally found him and that now I have a way to help him back? Why can't I feel the shock in my head that Carter is the man I have been searching for all these years? Why can't I just get a break from this already?
I groan in frustration.
Maybe I know why.
Because I never wanted that man to be Carter. I never wanted that man to suffer so brutally like Carter has been suffering.
I am scared of one more thing.
What if he was injured for the first time in the car crash before the game day like Dr. Zain suggested the other day?
I felt my eyes tearing up and I embraced myself.
No...
Am I responsible for his condition? Has he been suffering because of me and my carelessness?
I stand up involuntarily, my hands reaching my mouth to prevent the prolonged gasp.
I can't breathe.
This is bad. This is so bad.
I-
I am responsible for all of this.
I race around the room mumbling to myself, fear and guilt gripping over me.
Tears keep falling down my cheeks nonstop and I can't seem to care any less.
I sit on the floor.
I pull my knees to my chest, eyeing the floor widely.
How can I ever look him in the eye again?
Will he hate me when he finds out?
NO
I stand up whipping my wet cheeks and walk inside my bedroom.
I will do everything to make it up to him.
Carter, I am so sorry.
I wish I could tell him on his face but I can't. I am a coward.
I was so close to curing him but when he gets his memory back, will he regret saving my life that day?
A tear leaves my swollen eyes, again.
I slip inside my blanket with an empty stomach.
I was considering fleeing away from here for a while before I heard my heart say, you saved me that day so selflessly.
I sit up on the bed, looking out of the window in front.
The voice inside me that suddenly turned so calm speaks again, life has finally given me a chance to save you from your nightmare. How can I step back now?
YOU ARE READING
𝐂𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐂𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐀𝐋
Romance𝘈 𝘯𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘢 𝘨𝘢𝘮𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘦 𝘮𝘦𝘵. Erica Martin works as an intern at a clinic under Dr. Thomas who was once a successful clinical psychologist in his time. Erica was leading a pretty normal life leaving that one incident a year...