COMBUSTION: A YokRay Story 🔥

Chapter 7: Free Falling Into The Unknown (Part2)

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Today was a really great day, spending it with someone like Ray, who doesn't seem to care about trivial matters, is kind of liberating. It surprised me that we never seem to run out of things to talk about and I'm beyond surprised just how easy it is for Ray to charm everybody into liking him.

Gin is smitten and is terribly now delusional about my relationship with Ray.

Maybe I am a little delusional too because the moment I saw Ray blowing off smoke, leaning on my motorcycle, pensively looking out at the sea, something in my heart felt a lot like feeling fluttered.

Before I knew it, I was upon Ray, flirting and laughing, forgetting that I still had baggage I needed to unload. But this baggage wouldn't even give me a day to enjoy whatever this is I felt when I was with Ray because I crashed back to reality when he called my name.

Knowing who I was going to find when I looked over, I saw Dan's furious face.

This is what procrastination does. I've been telling myself to go talk to him and end things but I kept pushing it back, maybe thinking the longer we don't see each other, the lesser the impact of the break up will be. I've known for a while now that Dan and I were over. It just wasn't how it used to be. But maybe I should have handled this better.

Feeling bad that things between us will now have to end in the ugliest way possible, one party–meaning me– caught cheating. Shit.I just don't want to say anything else that could trigger Dan. He had been volatile and unpredictable lately, with the slightest nudge, he is bound to explode.

So when Ray, the smart boy that he is, said he was going to leave and let us talk, I was relieved. He is at least out of harm's way, before Dan breaks. When Dan started raising his voice, I knew that the shift had started. I thought, I could just endure this for the last time and maybe end this here. He had gripped my hand so tight, I couldn't stop the wince of pain. I tried to just keep silent and stay still, hoping he will calm down. But today it seems, my silence is making him explode.

My tears began falling because I felt sorry for hurting Dan, I felt sorry for myself for letting things go this far. All my friends had been nagging me endlessly about this and I kept saying I will handle it. Now we are here. It hurt to remember how much I use to love this man, but the last year had slowly suck those feelings out everytime he lashes out at me; everytime his grip, like this, just becomes too painful; when he would push me just a little too hard everytime I say something that he doesn't agree with. It has become almost a nightmare when a date starts out so good and not even halfway through the night, we are already shouting and arguing with each other. It had become so agonizing that kissing him and fucking him had either become like a chore and at times even like I was being forced to do it, because even if I said no, he would still eventually make me agree to do it at the end. So why was I too fucking scared to just end it?

Dan became more agitated the more I did not say a word, so he pushed me. I was also expecting the blow that would surely follow and did not defend myself hoping that would at least make Dan feel better and I could at least atone for cheating on him when I should have ended things a long time ago.

When no blow came, I was surprised to discover that Ray had returned and intercepted the punch. Shocked to the core because I thought he had left and how did he manage to intercept an ex policeman's punch? Ray doesn't look like he had ever lifted anything heavy in his lifetime. But despite being shorter he had stood his ground, meeting Dan's furious stare.

I told Ray to leave but he stood in front of me fearlessly. It had taken 2 attempts from Dan to properly hit Ray before I managed to unfreeze myself and croak out "Stop", but that was obviously falling on deaf ears. So when Dan was going to lunge himself at Ray for the 3rd time, I had no choice but to land a punch on him to effectively make him stop.