Dimencreas (One-Shots)

Distress - Himeko

(Warning!: This chapter includes some self harm...)

Y/n and Himeko were quite close from before— she would always cling onto the red-head and Himeko would then pat her on the head. However, something happened that made the two individuals become almost complete strangers with each other.

Sometimes, it became a little awkward since those two are both staying in the express and would sometime made eye contact with each other yet refuse to say anything.

Himeko was still sipping on her coffee when Y/n came into the lounge. She then noticed Y/n, and their eyes met. She knew what Y/n was like, but she didn't say anything because... she understood Y/n.

“Hey... Y/n. It's just the two us here. What brings you to the main room?” She said, with a slight tone of concern, yet still retaining her enthusiasm.

However, Y/n did not answer straight away, but eventually, she spoke, with a calm tone. She was leaning onto one of the couches, not really wanting to move, but she eventually did.

“Um... Himeko? Is there any way for us to talk more... privately? There's something I really need to tell you about...” Y/n said, now looking at her with a more serious expression.

Himeko felt worried for Y/n, who once was the closest friend she had, but now had to talk privately about something. She also thought about how Y/n was more... ‘reserved’ in expressing herself.

“Is everything alright? Of course we can talk more privately— we can go to my room.” The red-head said, having a concerned look on her face, as she stood up, and looked at Y/n.

Y/n was glad to hear that as she did not want anyone else to hear what she wanted to say to Himeko. Her worried look became slightly more serious, as they moved to Himeko's room.

Once they got to Himeko's room, Y/n spoke, with a semi-serious tone.

“So... Himeko. I wanted to ask you something... There is no way to say this without possibly offending you, but I really need to tell you something.”

She was still worried as she said this— she really didn't want to offend Himeko. Although she really hoped Himeko would understand.

“What happened to us..?”

That was the only question that's been weighing in Y/n's mind since then.

Himeko was somewhat surprised upon hearing Y/n's concerns, but she did not show it.

There was a silence as Himeko thought of how to respond to her question, which wasn't easy, considering the awkward tension between them.

“... I think... I know what you're talking about. You want to ask what changed between us, right?”

She didn't know how she felt about this question. It was.. awkward for her, but she had to tell the truth.

“...Yes, did everything changed after I made a love confession to you?”

Himeko was shocked after hearing Y/n tell her the real reason why she was asking for a private talk. She was surprised to have been right— something did change after that moment.

“...Yes. After you made that love confession to me, things between us changed.” She admitted, despite feeling awkward saying this. Perhaps it was best to be honest.

“Why?” You muttered. “Was it because we're both a woman? Or was it because you couldn't handle a relationship between two members within the astral express?”

Himeko went silent after hearing Y/n's question. She didn't really know if Y/n's guess was true, but she still answered, with a bit of regret.

“...I think it was both. But also, I think that... I think after that confession, I realised.. That although I did also like you.. I didn't really want to be in a romantic relationship with you..”