A little girl
Behind all of the confidence
Behind any of her words
Behind her mistakes
Behind her personality
Behind what she tries to be
What's behind all of her
Is a little girl
A little girl who was never properly loved or taught how to deal with her emotions
A little girl who still craves a genuine encounter from her father
A little girl who still needs attention
A little girl who had to take care of herself
Whose childhood was stolen by lies, deceit, and chaos
Who always thought she did something wrong
Who hated herself and was made out to do so
Who had doubt
Who lied
Who threw things
Who screamed and cried
Who ripped the hair out of her head
Who banged her face on a wall till it went blue
Who bit her arms until they bled
Who cried alone in her bed
Who didn't ever sleep at night
Who jumped in fear when hearing footsteps
Who wanted to die
Who begged whatever god there was to let me die
Who begged and pleaded for things to get better
Who was never properly cared for
Who was not told it would be ok as much as she should've heard it
Just a little girl
Who needed a little more love
A little more peace
A little bit of sunshine
A lot more understanding
And a chance to be heard
But she never was able to speak
Bottled up inside
Her emotions
Taken into adulthood
Her habits
Searching for what she's always needed, now in the present.
Searching for healing once more.
