The Medic

Agreed

We sat there for a while.
I slowly calmed down.

I hadn't even the nerves to think about his words.
I hadn't even understood them.

But his look on his face told me so much more.
I may hadn't understood his words but I understood the rest.

I was so sure he felt the same way I did.
But I knew how complicated it was to admit that. Especially after all that happened between us.
And I would respect that.

This was all too much.
Maybe we just needed more time.

After a while he pulled me closer and lifted me up.

„Let's go inside. You're freezing"

„You're freezing too"

„But that doesn't matter"

„Oh shut up"

„Never"

He grinned slightly and carried me up the stairs.
He set me down as we were inside.
He brushed some snowflakes out of my hair.

As soon as we entered the living room Markus stormed towards me and hugged me.

I thought it was bold after what had just happened but I was so glad.

„I'm so sorry Missy. It's my fault not yours!"

„No it isn't. You couldn't have known Markus"

I said and patted his back.

„No no no. It's my fault only.
No discussions. Here I made you hot chocolate.
Please I'm sorry"

I looked at the mug he held out.
I felt the tears come back.
But this time out of pure happiness.

„Thank you"

i whispered softly.

„Is your arm ok?"

I asked after I took the mug and looked up to Markus with big eyes.

„Oh yes yes. Believe me I had worse with this idiot! And yes I give up I believe you that you're stronger."

I grinned slightly.

„I told you"

I mumbled and König laughed behind me.

I drank the hot chocolate and then excused me upstairs.
My head still felt dizzy.
I needed some good sleep.

But I couldn't.
I layed there with open eyes.
Not able to sleep.

After some time I heard the door.
König slipped inside and stopped his tracks as he saw that I wasn't sleeping.

„Maus. Why aren't you sleeping?"

„Can't."

I mumbled tired.
He sighed.

„Can I do something?"

„Can we cuddle?"

I looked over and tilted my head slightly.
Even in the dark I could see his radiant smile.

„Of course we can"

He got changed really quick and almost jumped next to me.
He instantly wrapped his arms around me and pulled me closer.
He nuzzled his head into my neck and sighed.

„Could get used to that"

„I know."

i whispered softly.
I could feel his smile on my neck.
And I knew why.
It was the first time I didn't made a sarcastic comment on this.

I agreed with him.

But none of us would get used to that.
I had that feeling.
In my head played always the thought that as soon as we would be back home everything would go back to the old ways.
Even if my feelings for him had definitely changed.

I just couldn't let myself have some happiness.
It was too good to be true.

But I had to admit that his warmth and his presence helped me to sleep instantly.
And so did he.
He was asleep in minutes.
And I knew how troubled he was with sleeping too.

Did that mean something?
Maybe.
Maybe not.
I really couldn't tell.

And I really didn't wanted to think about it.
I just never wanted this moment to end.

And my feeling got even stronger with every hour and day we spend together.

Christmas was just magical.

We all cooked together, played games, talked and had such fun.

I realised how amazing it was to have a big family. Everyone looked out for each other.

We both had agreed on something.
As soon as we would be back home we would have each time to unpack and then we would talk.

We really needed to talk.

But it wouldn't even come that far.
It all went in a different direction.