The Medic

Home

And he held his word.
Johnny came every day.
Every dinner.

And I had gained my old weight pretty quickly.
But I got so much support not only from Johnny more even from König that I didn't mind.

After months of hard work, therapy and discussions I finally was allowed to go home.
It was ridiculous.
I argued every day that the medic bay was only a 10 minute walk away from my apartment.

I just wanted home.
In my own bed.
In my own shower.

And my therapist got my back.
He highly recommended that I could go.
I needed to be in my familiar space.
I needed peace.

And finally I was allowed to.
I had texted König in the morning that I could go.
It only took me around an hour to pack everything up.
I was already waiting for him to pick me up.

I knew if I would have went alone he would scold me the whole day.

He was still too careful.
He wanted to help with everything.
Even tho I was almost back at my old strength.
My only real problem was my mind.
The nightmares.

But that's why I wanted home.
Maybe then I would feel better.

I could already sense the large smile under his mask as he barged into the door.

„You can really go?"

„Yes! Already packed my things.
I never thought I would be so happy to leave this place"

I smiled slightly.
He eyed my things up and down.

„What? We can easily carry these"

„Yeah but I can't carry all this and you, Maus"

I shook my head.

„König I don't need to be carried.
I'm fine. Please you need to stop this"

He signed deep.
After some seconds in wich it looked like he was fighting his own thoughts he gave in.

„fine. But you don't carry anything"

„Alright alright"

He grabbed my bags and let me go first.

As we stepped out I took a moment to take in the fresh air.
I was outside a couple of times with the guys but this felt different.
I would go home.

We took our time to get to the apartment complex. König suggested a little detour though the garden but I didn't wanted him to carry all my stuff the whole time.
We would have enough time later.

As we arrived on my level I opened my door and smiled.

I was home.
I opened the windows and König packed away my things.
I sat down on my couch and just stared at the wall.

A lot of thoughts flooded my brain.
It felt familiar being here.
But everything else was different.

I felt overwhelmed.
And before I could do or say something tears steamed down my face.

„Maus I think you need a new bookshelf. I may bought a little too much books"

König froze as he came back from the bedroom with his arms full of books.
I flinched hard as he instantly dropped all the books and was besides me with two big steps.

„Ey ey ey ey Maus what's wrong?"

He kept checking me to see if I was in pain.
I grabbed his hands that were inspecting me and shook my head.
He just looked at me with a very lost expression.

„What-„

„It's just very much"

I interrupted him.
His face softened a bit and he relaxed visibly.
Without a word he sat down next to me and lifted me up into his lap.
I immediately curled up as he wrapped his arms around me.
I sighed deep.

The overwhelming feeling subsided.
I breathed in his scent and listened to his heartbeat.
My breathing calmed down and matched his.

He was my safe place.
Yes I needed to get home.
But I needed nothing more than him.