Thinking Out Loud (A Hunter Hayes Fanfic)

Chapter 19 Thinking Out Loud

Chapter 19 Lauren's POV
It was 12 in the morning as Hunter decided to have a moon light picnic. He held my hand as we walked to the plain grass golf course. Hunter looked anxious. Some thing was bothering him and he wasn't acting the same as he usually does. He stopped as I looked at him, he stepped in front of me,"I have to tour." "Tour?" "It starts in three days-" "and you didn't tell me?" "That was what my phone call was about, I didn't even get to say in whether I could do it or not, they planned it without me." He had anger in his eyes,"you really would think I would plan a tour without telling you? Are you stupid? Do you think?" I stepped back away from him,"well the person you are right now seems like the person who would. I'm not stupid, and I do think." I quickly responded with anger as well. I don't mind Hunter talking to me like that because I know he's mad and he's in the moment. I can't really stop him from controlling his mouth when he's angry, so I'll just let it be, and let him say what he's been really meaning to say,"I miss so much in my life because of music." He said softly,"I love it so much, but sometimes, I would rather be with mom and eat her gumbo, be with dad and fish with him, I don't know. In high school, when I got bullied, I would run into the music room because that was the only place I could think. My music teacher understood me, and you know what she told me? 'Hunter Hayes, music can't be the only solution to you problems. You have to spread your wings and go on about'. That's imprinted in my mind every time I have to miss at home activities-" "well guess what Hunter." I quickly interrupted,"life isn't always going to go your way. You can't get what you want so you go and complain and cry, take your anger, problems out on people who had absolutely nothing to do with it. My parents died in car accident when I was 13 and my aunt raised me. I wake up knowing I have to purpose to be here in this world. My parents never saw me race, graduate, my first date, get married, having a kid for god sake. Maybe instead of feeling bad for yourself, get a new perspective, because hell, you need one. I know you WAY better than this, I know you more than you know yourself." I finished almost in tears. Don't cry Lauren, be strong. "Why didn't you tell me your parents died?" "Why do you need to know? I HAD my life, you had yours." "That's bull Lauren because every moment I could remember, you were there by my side. I'm mad because I will miss you. I will miss your laugh, smile, jokes. Every time I see you, I just can't help, but to smile. I never get annoyed with you because you are beyond perfect. Do you know how bad it's going to hurt me saying goodbye?" "Just say it now." I said as my hands fell to my side,"I can't." He said almost sounding like he was going to cry,"the hardest thing in the world, is leaving you." "You left me once-" "FOR GOD SAKE LAUREN DO YOU NOT SEE THE POINT IM TRYING TO MAKE!?" He walked up to me as his face was in mine,"I LEFT YOU ONCE BECAUSE YOU WERE AN IDIOT FOR NOT GOING TO COLLEGE, IT HURT ME DOING THAT TO YOU." He yelled in my face. I looked down,"Is nothing ever good enough for you?" He questioned me,"NO. The real question is, is it good enough for YOU?" I responded in anger as tears fell out my eyes. I quickly turned around and left.